just feel like i need to get it out. i am most likely setting myself up for a fall, but at least i know i put my all into it if it doesnt work out. i have been giving her more attention and getting it back, but the times when i dont get it back, i find myself back to expecting it -- and i know this is wrong. i try to keep myself from ignoring her ( Read more... )

things still confusing as before, if not more now. it could go good, it could go bad. having hope and trying not to all at the same time. good times.. lemme tell you.

this is quite possibly one of the hardest things that i have ever gone through. i'm still in awe with the decision she has made. i dont understand how she can do that and still expect me to be around.. or even close. she doesnt even treat me like a friend anymore.. i guess this is understandable. i still dont understand how short it was ago that ( Read more... )

rofl.
matt i think we have a problem. i will never live this one down.
wtf is the happy ending?
<3 richie

yesterday was just crazy. work was just bad. stupid annoying kids.. it makes me remember why i hate working fridays. in the middle of work i get a call from carol. shes like boy broke heart, need to talk. so we caught up for about an hour or so on whats being goin on in our lifes. pretty neat. after work i was off to the inn. it was such an awesome ( Read more... )

this is unlike any pain ive ever felt before ( Read more... )

remember the nights spent in embrace of each other ( Read more... )

exactly what i didnt expect. well... rich is now in need of loving female. if the only thing i can get out of this is that i made the biggest mistake of my life... and aparently it is time for me to pay for it.

i hate just sitting here helpless waiting by the phone.. or the computer. every possible senerio running through my brain all at once. every possible feeling all at the same time. right now there doesnt seem to be anything to clear my foggy head execpt the truth from you ( Read more... )

if only i could lie and say this doesnt suck.