wow meg, WAY to be a bad friend...

Okay I'm done being meg, super bitch, for this week. Sorry you had to see that.

I feel so crazy and delusional. I was so happy just a little while ago, but now I'm not. And it sucks. And I feel like it's all one reason, and I feel like SUCH a loser. You know why else I feel like a loser? I feel like not even my friends understand me now. There is no one who I could sit down with and explain everything, and have the kind ( Read more... )

I hate these goddamn social standards. They mean that I have to be nice to people who I don't even want to talk to, they mean that I can't express ANYTHING that I feel, I can't be spoken to under some circumstances, I can't talk to others under certain circumstances, and then there are the people that don't follow them. I hate feeling like crap, ( Read more... )

That's fucking nuts. That's all I hav to say....is that it's fucking nuts.

I feel good, I knew that I would. No lie. I'm relaxed...sometimes I get a little antsy, but that'll eventually stop too. I think I'll feel better in school tomorrow. I never really feel to great when I sit in my room alone anymore. Too much time to think. I need a whole day of mindless activities. I'm really sick of all of this thinking I've ( Read more... )

grrrrrr

Well today wasn't particularly amazing, but really not so bad either. There was nothing strikingly good about it, and even quite a few bad things, but I held up and for the first time in a while I don't feel like hurling anything at someone's head. I feel....in control. Yeah, in control. That's the phrase. I don't know what made the past week ( Read more... )

So today I went with Kerrin to apply for a job at Summer Place. To me this seems like a better option than stop & shop. Really, bagging groceries is not my thing. I know that Summer Place isn't anything glamarous....but that's okay. They don't call it entry level for nothing. Plus my money needs are beginning to exceed my income ($0) so I need ( Read more... )

I'm sick of all of this intense fighting/hypocracy