Well this weekend sucked other then b-mountain. Seams like people are just happy to screw me over and they don't care what it does. Like it feels like people just talk cuz thats how they feel at the moment and then when it all comes down to it dont really want what they said they wanted. I don't want to be anyones bitch or someone they play with ( Read more... )

I'm so incredably pissed right now I want to throw up! I hate hate hate hate hate whats happening. Its like I'm in a drama sit com. It's like God is doing things to show me something and opening my eyes. I'm so furious right now and I dont ever think I can get over this. My heart has been ripped out of my chest and stomped on millions and ( Read more... )

I dont like the way I feel inside so I'm trying to block it out with whatever i can possibly do to keep my mind off of it. Writing about it in LJ isn't going to help but its better then bottling it all up inside. Homecoming is right around the corner and still no clue what I'm going to do. I dont even know if I'm going to go or not. B-mountain ( Read more... )

This is how I feel right now. Couldn't describe it any better then this song ( Read more... )

Well yesterday was a horrible day. It was super boring at my ROP site. All I did was stand around like a dumbass and watch the Physical Therapist treat people. Then I had not money for lunch so I just talked to Allen. After that I left and went to my elementart TA class and that was so frustrating. She had me making 22 copies of 22 pages and ( Read more... )

Hello, it's long overdue for an update. I've gotten so bad at remembering. I dont feel right about things right now and have been in deep thought for a while. I got grounded on friday so I started reading an awesome book called The Last Valentine. It's such a good book, it's hard to put down. It's got me thinking a lot about Allen and what he ( Read more... )

Why do people try to act like they're someone else that they arn't really? I'm so tired of people being so fake its irratating. I'm tired of so many things right now and it put me in such a horrible mood. I really want to get into a fist fight right now and kick someones ass. I'm tired of back-stabbing, keniving people that try to act like they ( Read more... )

For the past couple of days I've had something on my mind. I can't stop thinking about it and its driving me crazy. It all just popped out of nowhere basically. I wish I could just get it all out of my head cuz I dont want to think about it at all. Things were going fine up until I started thinking. I need to find closure with things but I don ( Read more... )

So yeah. Today was a pretty good day I suppose. I've been extremly tired for the past couple of days. I almost fell asleep in ROP today but I managed to stay awake. I got a perfect score on my CPR test. Sarah and I both did. It was awesome. I still haven't turned in any of my work in english yet. That class is so incredably hard. He's ( Read more... )

The past couple of days have been an emotional roller coaster. Lots of things have been happening lately. Lastnight Allen had a little going away dessert thing at his house. It was fun. I was really good and didnt cry until I got into my car. Then when I got into my house I gave my mom a huge hug and cried some more. I showed her the pics I got ( Read more... )