too many things are breaking my heart.\

i don't want to grow old and become heartless like my mother and lonely like my father and lose compassion or the ability to listen and try to understand with an open and forgiving and accepting heart.

fuck

i still feel traumatized and shocked from an experience that was awfully life-changing that happened 2 nights ago on wednesday night. i'm okay now, or so i hope, after dealing with the fucked up , ass backwards  so called "legal system" which in my situation involved being harassed by the chochiest macho alpha-male cops pigs i've ever encountered. ( Read more... )

you "don't have much to say" when you sit on that porch in broad daylight and look so lifeless in your pale thinning limbs,

you don't have much to say at all to me ,and i'm scared that i don't have much to either though we've never talked about what happened in the falling out in spring after we rode our bicycles to get breakfast,

and you thought not ( Read more... )

one of the most depressing songs ever next to handfulls of other BE songs

"I wish I saved up for rainy days cause they're the hardest to be dry
I got no self control
I'm always begging into telephones
I bought a little from my brother's friend, well, just to get me by
I don't trust his cut
The effect is never as high as the mark-up
I think I'll ( Read more... )

Holy shit! This is the 3rd or 4th time in a week that someone calls the office at Labor Notes and i answer only to hear one of the creepiest horror movie-like 'demon voices,' no joke ( Read more... )

so it's been a while. july was a fantabulous month-- i saw three singers that all melted my heart over and over again. at the beginning of the month i saw mirah at the magic stick. her voice even makes me melt when she speaks. then i saw madeline play at the t-plex. it was a small show but she played old stuff and new stuff. i am in love with her ( Read more... )

i'm really excited right now about this weekend. 
tomorrow i'm going to see mirah! and going to recycling  in the morning and getting my film developed!

on sunday a girl (oddly enough named Meagan White= Meg White) that i went to pre-preschool/day care when i was a wee little gal (2-3ish) with who is about 2 years older than me is getting married to ( Read more... )

I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH. !
someone, let's go early on saturday.
it's halfway through summer and i haven't set foot in a metro park or dipped my feet into a lake yet

i  am  so  nervous