i should pour my heart out to someone. instead of sugar coating my life and making everything sound so perfect and uncomplicated i should be honest. but how can you be honest about something that you cant even understand? i think i should see a therapist. its not like i cant afford it. i make 18 bux an hour and i get double time for oeertime. i get ( Read more... )

Life has been nothing short of confusing for me lately. I have issues with so many things an no one to really vent my ass off to. so here goes. i hate that i had two amazing job opportunities fall into my lap at the same time. i got the job as a phlebotomist at the hospital and it seemed like a dream job. then my uncle pulled through and i got the ( Read more... )

 
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5 i am now the newest full-time phlebotomist at peconic bay medical center for (HOLY SHIT) $16.95/hour (plus double time for holidays and nights and two weeks paid vacay)
4 i got new brakes, an oil change, and some other random maintenance done to my car and its running better than ever
3 i got the most gorgeous dress yesterday. its the ( Read more... )

im  so broken of spirit right now. why is it that God refuses to cut me a break? Im a simple girl i ask for simple thigs. I want to be happy and i want to feel loved. I truly didnt think i was asking for much.

this has been a terrible week. i got into a car accident the other day. not anything too bad, but enough so that i dont have a car until their done fxing it. and the worst thing in the universe that could have possiby happened has happened. anthony and i went to our weekly football game in the best buy parking lot last night around ten. we brought ( Read more... )

throwing up feeling nauseous headaches dizzy pain etc since saturday... yeah. finallly going to the walk-in drs office near my bfs house... only to find out they think i have appendecitis... wtf. all i did when the dr told me was start laughing... than anthony started laughing... the dr looked confused and anthony filed her in: "thats just her luck ( Read more... )

my ass is sore. yes, my ass. i just got an injectable form of birth control called depo provera. it sounded like a miracle drug. get a shot every 3 months and BAM no more pill everyday bullshit... yeah. except now my ass is sore and bruised, i have a massive headache, and my boobs hurt... a loooot... so me, being the paranoid assholeface i am, i ( Read more... )

sometimes i think i must be the craziest person in the world. i try to sabotage the things i care most about. i push away and hurt the people i love the most. i do the things i look down on others for doing. and i vent my problems to other people without making any sense of them myself, than get frustrated when they dont understand me either. i ( Read more... )

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