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Being Ordinary
Something I’ve accepted is that I’m ordinary. I have ordinary struggles, looks, intelligence, and resources. The only really extraordinary thing about me is my marriage. I lucked out and married a wonderful man 40+ years ago.
Much of my life I think I had to believe I was extra-ordinary. I had to see my struggle with PTSD as a holy war to be able ( Read more... ) -
Off in the Mail and ...
Those 13 pulps and 2 others. I have 4 more to mail to the customer sometime this week. Also mailed a copy of the last anthology to my BFF, as she shares them with her kids, sister and niece/nephew.
Have measurement I needed for the 3 pieces of artwork to return to the artist. When I can find a mailer of the correct size, those will go too.
Worked ( Read more... ) -
Yesterday
I started sorting the books and misc. stuff into categories, in boxes:
Keeps.
Donations.
Sell using housewares auction.
Sell using book auction.
Sell at the antique booth.
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It's working. The stuff is going away.
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I expect, with luck and hard work, to maybe close my storage unit (after 15+ years!) by Columbus day.
Go me!!!
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Happy Birthday
TO THE SKY...
You know who you are, right?
Thought I'd rejoined 43tags, but no, darn it, or I would have posted this there.
What's new with me? Working on 2 or 3? books re: frugality/cooking/food/retirement.
Seventh anthology was released in July. It's probably the last one at a guess...
Sending things to auction.
Getting ready to probably close ( Read more... ) -
New Direction
One thing I’ve noticed a lot lately. I tend to look back. I guess it was necessary, to heal as much as I have; but I don’t need to do that any more.
So, when I got done at the farm this week, I realized I was doing this, again. And I asked, “What can I do that is forward thinking instead of stewing about my past/its results?”
The answer was to go ( Read more... ) -
Getting Around the Roadblocks!
Boy it's hard to change, isn't it? I mean I can change and do, but it's like watching partially frozen molasses coming out of a jar that only lets one drop out at once...
REALLY, really s-l-o-w. . .
I wake up every morning determined that today will be different, I will be a powerhouse, a whirlwind of activity... and it just doesn't happen.
So, I' ( Read more... ) -
New Organization
Been using cards/library pockets to track my day to day. That works in that I don't see the accumulated change, although in Feb I dropped it for 2 weeks... [Hello PTSD!] that's pretty normal for me.
Have calendars on order for tracking/communicating what's planned and I'm doing to DH.
Things are getting finished, it ebbs and flows, as usual with my ( Read more... ) -
Still Working
Culling things, changing things for our dotage, etc.
Have a new method for the clean & cull, which so far works great. That’s encouraging, hopefully it will continue without agitating my PTSD!
We’re debating how to redesign our biggest cabinet, which holds the baking pans, etc. that seems to be the next piece.
The new path around the porch is ( Read more... ) -
Progress!
I've been going through boxes of old papers etc. I found a printout from the 43t days, a "to do" list about moving furniture:
- Removing a bookcase from DH's office
- Moving a counter to DH's office from mine
- Removing a hanging shelf from DH's office
- Moving a desk from DH's office to mine
- Moving bookcases from my office to DH's
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New Direction(s)
A few "Aha!" things:
1. I realized that what I did with the last therapist after my PTSD diagnosis was to tear apart my defense mechanisms.
2. This was successful, in that I stopped carrying around the depthless pain I always had. (I celebrated that on 43t, if you knew me when.)
3. The defense mechanisms, which I assumed would come back, did not.
4 ( Read more... )