Leaving space for something different
Is what happens when you really see how a person treats you and in that realizing your own worth and knowing that the person won't change unless they want to.
Believe what they show you..it's a gift.

The walk was short but I am tired.

How much do I really matter.

:/

......

Shhh.
We don't speak of things we should speak of.
We have become blind to the things that mattered.
Tredging.
I exist not in your life.
And yet I give.
I am filling up with sadness and soon become ambivalent
It is the way of smiling thru unshed tears. The hardened heart.
Will beat no longer.

And you and you and you and you
Well
Fuck you ,fuck you and fuck you and fuck you too

T.a.a

November came and november went.
We didn't see eachother.
..it. fades..

I used to write
But now I don't
I used to cry
But now I won't.

The things that made me smile and laugh
Are becoming few and far between
And because of the starkness of the past,
It is becoming a reality.

I had loved you like I've never have loved before.
And you have felt love like you've never felt before
But in that mix we cancelled ourselves out.
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In solitude I look back thru the pages of my past.
And it tires me.
Right to the core of my soul
I question myself.
Why do I put up with it. But a sudden spontaneity of happiness clouds over it and it becomes forgotten
Until
At nite
I remember my past.

D e j g s.
Polly.
B I c b w I w t b

I have incalculable sadness feeding on me and trying to squeeze my heart silent
I am so tired. My soul is drained and I fumble in a skin body wearing a masked smile
I am fighting against myself and I am losing
I am withdrawing into nothing barely pulling out and at this point,just by routine.
I want to sleep one day thru into the night of tomorrow and ( Read more... )