reading brandon's journal has inspired me to make a long put off update. things between matt and i have actually been doing pretty well lately. but it just seems so mundane and ordinary. everything about our relationship is pretty comfortable and predictable. i seem to be getting tired of the monotony of things ( Read more... )

matt and i went downtown to see matt-o and see about ( Read more... )

i had a pretty bad night, but i saw legally blonde 2 and it made me so happy. i know i am not the type of person that anyone would expect to enjoy a movie like that. but it was an inspiration ( Read more... )

brent is right. matt and i are perfect for each other. he came over and talked to my mom and i gained so much more respect for him.

i can't ever feel completely bad when he's anywhere near. <3 <3 <3 ( Read more... )

i had an amazing day. and it was not altered by drugs of any sort so it was all the more great.

i am enthralled with this boy. truly.

monday, we are going to the pound to look for a dog, and i think i may fall in love then.

i just wish i knew how he felt....even a little.

i like him so much, but it's very frustrating to not know whether you are wasting your time caring about someone. though i think i may be, because i am not sure if he is capable of human emotions. or so it seems.

i dont know that i am either though.

how things can get so complicated in just one day, is beyond me sometimes.

why i'm listening to the movielife is also beyond me. not the most cheery music.

so james is mad at me, and rightly so. i don't want to call and apologize, but he bought me a box of fun dip.

i miss gabby.

i have to work tonight. lame ( Read more... )

im at brents. oh lord.

about to go to some party downtown. hopefully i will have fun, but i ended up getting mad at james earlier. and kinda matt even though he doesnt know anything about it.

more later.

noah, noah, noah.

oh god.