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shadow
I’m quietly overwhelmed by all my feelings lately, throbbing to the forefront of my mind like an math equation that hasn’t been planned out thoroughly. I get into a screaming match in the middle of the night, throwing my voice and words around like an avalanche. The women in my life know me so well, spilling their thoughts into words that sound ( Read more... ) -
the truth in your lies
She slivers in like some deadly snake, quaking in the night and I take a stab at crying out like a lonesome dove. She picks at my feathers, until her teeth are wrapped around my throbbing head, taking me all in with her mouth. I am crying again, again, again. Stop it. This madness is indefinitely maddening. How does one keep a secret? By tightening ( Read more... ) -
without love i won't survive
The moon is still full and pregnant in my dream, dancing across the sky as it did in my reality only a week or so ago. It’s harmonized with the baby child wrapped in blankets beside me. What a dream. I make a horrible mother. She is brown skinned with deep chocolate eyes, and tiny fingers staring up at me. I listen to her heart beat silently, and ( Read more... ) -
enough
I used to think it was that I didn’t love her enough if there is such a thing, and now I know that it is that I love her more than myself enough to sacrifice my desires and wants to appease her own. In a way I’m haunted by all the love I feel for her, stretching out through miles like the space between two people that is only measured in breaths. ( Read more... ) -
love. you.
My heart is all the rage, wet and slippery beyond my fingertips. Occasionally I can hear an echo in my head, a rhythmic voice telling me to rip it out. These images have always haunted me. A stiff, still beating heart doused on the floor against a pile of blood and fluid - always half wooden and steel. Thump, thump, thumpMemorial day brings out a ( Read more... ) -
i feel about you now.
Is it possible to know someone without really knowing them? As if there is some instantaneous connection pulling you together, like two strands of a cord wrapped up in a coil shade of gold. I’ve experienced this only once, in a different shade, and from a different place and time when my heart was floundering in uncertainty. This could easily be a ( Read more... ) -
You built my hopes up so high
A switch hits, back in reverse. I hold onto the clutch of my heart and it breaks. The tears run like a river of change but I’m right back to where I started. The grief still stifles me, oddly enough I can take a good physical beating, scratched and bruised and bleeding all over the place but my heart can’t emerge unscathed from the emotional ( Read more... ) -
music
So I’m writing an Vampire themed novel, and really need some musical inspiration to write to, anyone?
