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[smoothluclovin]

I've been MIA... for no particular reason. Not really much to explain. Just haven't really been getting on. It's funny. I make these entries hoping people will empathize with me. Feel for me. Understand me. Maybe i want reassurance that i'm doing the right thing. But, then again, i always find a means to justify my feelings/behavior,

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[haute_couture_]

well i've missed your posts.

and now onto all of this.
you are even over analyzing, analyzing.
what you are doing IS human nature, to worry and to figure things out within yourself. even if you change your mind the next day. i am the same way. more so about worrying about everyone elses actions and basing my own upon them, in fear of disappointment or abandonment.
i think yours has a lot to do with your own comfort with your own choices. i won't lie, getting other peoples approval on things is great. it makes you feel like you are not alone. don't feel bad for feeling like that, at all. i am sure everyone does it sometime. but you are such an intelligent person luc. all for a reason. whether you have an amazing school education or not, your common sense is what makes you intelligent. learn to trust yourself. look at things from different points and analyze if you wish. but dont question your choices. they are yours for a reason.

♥
Drea

[smoothluclovin]

Thanks, Drea <3 I just feel so distant from everyone else sometimes. Misunderstood, even, i suppose.

[haute_couture_]

Maybe you should invite people in. Or at least one person. Give someone the chance to understand you. Being understood by a bunch of people who in the end seem to never care is what frightens me. You are not alone in a lot of what you type in your journal. Granted I'm sure there is more or less you are saying, I understand. ♥

[beutifu1dizastr]

i act on thought too...i never stop thinking. but i can't imagine being a person who acts on instinct all the time...even if it seems an easier lifestyle sometimes. i wish i was as good as writing out my feelings as you. take care <3

[smoothluclovin]

Heh yah i know what you mean <3 thanks!

[try_tryagain]

"My mind is always, rapidly, weighing and measuring each knew situation it encounters. And with that knowledge, my opinion often shifts, as well. Which is why, i think, i'm such an enigma"

im the EXACT same way <3
i feel ya luc baby.

[smoothluclovin]

I'm glad you can empathize <3

[_jayme_]

I just related to that whole thing
yeah<3

[smoothluclovin]

Werd em up, honey bear <3 we're cut from the same cloth ;)

[x_chikia_x]

Yea. That was me the whole way. I'm always overanalyzing every situation. Even if one day it was good, the next day, it might piss me off and bother me and give me a hugeeee headache trying to figure it all out.
<3 Have fun with this No Megan vacation. <3

[smoothluclovin]

heh yah that's exactly how i get sometimes <3 thank you!