Why is God testing an attribute of mine that I'm told is one of my best attributes and have never had a hard time with?

I hope posting this releases whatever pressure I need because I feel like something inside me is about to blow up.  I've been doing real well, nothing bothering me, but the last 24 hours is killing me.  First, I asked one of my friends that are having a hard time this summer (stupid life stuff) if they wanted to get their mind off it and Id take ( Read more... )

No more emo me, it makes me look dumb as hell.  So I've numbed feelings to the point where I don't feel it anymore. yaaaaaaaay! Seriously just look at the last few entries here.  Pathetic and not happening anymore.

I just had the coolest experience last night, I did my daily (or nightly since its almost always after midnight) run in a thunder storm!  I had rain in my face, thunder overhead, it was awesome ( Read more... )

Yet another friend has gone through a break up... and I offer to help him through it.  What is with this summer? I've known like 6 couples in under a month to break up.  I know some couples just won't make it over the summer because they aren't meant to be in the first place, but what about the ones that just need to work through some small ( Read more... )

... but I'm still sticking by my November 28th entry prediction...

Today isn't a great day, but I always feel  better when I talk about whats going on in my head.  I still miss her, and my heart still tells me that there's that slight hope that maybe she will want what we had back, kind of like the movies maybe where there's always that separation but then they get back together even stronger in the end.  My mind ( Read more... )