things have been better. things have possibly also been worse, but only in a relative comparison to what feels terrible to a little kid brain. these are semi-adult brain things ( Read more... )

i still haven't read the way i should be. haha every time i go to write in this it makes me realize that. which is definitely a good thing. little reminders. but it makes me feel so terrible ( Read more... )

this summer is so weird. so different. a certain lack of endless possibilities and nights that go on for forever. nothing even remotely close, in fact ( Read more... )

so any kind of aforementioned motivation is out the window. completely gonzo. i don't feel bothered by that one bit and i don't think i should be, either. it is what it is ( Read more... )

... OR WILL YOU ( Read more... )

is this thing on ( Read more... )

i've thought about this a lot. i don't want to be someone's second choice. i don't want to be the girl someone's with just because his first choice already had a boyfriend. i don't want to be the "other" girl. i don't want to be the girl who keeps hanging out with a boy, always hoping he'll break up with his girlfriend. i don't want to be the ( Read more... )

things happen so fast these days. well i'm pretty sure it's always been like that and it's not just some recent occurrence. BUT THINGS CHANGE SO FUCKING QUICKLY. literally... day to day, hour to hour, moment to moment. the universe shifts. your world completely changes. you saw something one way and then for no reason at all something alters ( Read more... )

okay this is going to completely contradict my random and not-thought-out idea in the last post... but i'm pretty sure i'm just not the boyfriend type. which is sweet cause i'm not so sure guys see me as the girlfriend type ha ha. which also kind of sucks. i mean i obviously eventually want to settle down and whatever...blah i don't know. i ( Read more... )

i think i just want someone to be sure about me.