It's an amazing thing when you see somebody who reminds you of yourself in a lot of ways. There is this guy i know named anthony and he reminds me of myself in some ways. The main way he reminded me of me is the way he acts around a certain chick. He loves her, even after they've been split for years, you can just see it. The way he looks at her, ( Read more... )

Well this last 5 days or so since the last drunken post have been pretty fucked up and overall draining. I thought thursday i was supposed to be off 1/2 day, but ended up working 8 hours anyway. Then after that i was supposed to talk with someone, but they made plans and blew me off. I then turned that rage on a 1/5 of rum and ended up taking it ( Read more... )

I realize a lot about a lot of things. As i am here drunk, and alone, i realize that i'm not a good person. What's really bad is that there are a lot of people out there who are worse than me. For Example, I think i know someone who is really bad. I thought i was her recovery point and her help through a harsh break up. It turns out i don't know ( Read more... )

I caught scarface the other day, plus i just think Pacino is an amazing actor. As for me let me catch up for the past few days. I got into a fight last friday, the 13th, of course. And since i had one friend partaking in drugs and the other out with other people, i didn't do much of shit on saturday. Plus like i said last time, fatigue is going off ( Read more... )

I was hanging with a friend the other night and they made a very good point about me and my emotional roller coaster of life. When i want to be charming and say nice things, sweet things, romantic things, funny things, etc. I do it. I have the full capacity to make girls blush or make friends laugh. For every nice thing i can say though there is a ( Read more... )

Well after making it 24 days of sobriety i ended it friday night. Call it what you will. Say i'm weak, that i had no shot, that i am not strong enough to quit a habit. The point of my sobriety was that i wanted to prove that i wasn't an alcoholic. In my mind, i accomplished that. I went 24 days without taking a drink. Yes i worked a lot and was ( Read more... )

You know every AA meeting starts with a prayer. I remember it from watching Changing Lanes, a shitty movie with Samuel L. Jackson and Ben Affleck. Anyway, shitty movies aside, the point is the prayer is summed up in the following way. You accept what you can't control, you change the bad things you should, and you hope that you can tell the ( Read more... )

This is the second post about the sobriety update. I have made it through bar b-q fest without having a drink, so the next big test is dealing with my air force buddy andrew coming in this weekend and after these next 2 weekends of dealing with him, i should be home free. As the subject states, my whole world is coming undone though. This sober ( Read more... )

Well it has now become apparent to me tonight that the only way i could get a C in my Income tax class is to hit 163/165 points. LOL. I am good, but that is beyond good, that is 99 percent good basically and i'm not that good. So i am only going to get 2 classes for this semester and man that is fucking sad. Not only does it become a wasted ( Read more... )

I really am one of those people who believe that everything happens for a reason. My parents divorced because they weren't right for each other. My dad is overly obese so that even me being fat, i always know that i gotta keep it in check. My brothers going to jail and prison to remind me to be a model citizen. My aunt being anti-social and never ( Read more... )