As an alcoholic, you have to be able to sit back and respect those people who do what you do, but they do it in a clean and normal way. They don't go buy a fifth, or a 12 pack, they simply do other, normal things to get them away from the shitty life they have, they are afraid to leave, or just feel guilted into being stuck with. I wish i could ( Read more... )

I don't know what the fuck that even means, but apparently me and this chick are taking one today. We have fought a lot lately. I think we are both to blame for it and sometimes it feels like she just wants to stay away from me when i'm trying to work this out. I am a jealous person, i can be controlling. However, i don't know what's wrong with ( Read more... )

The waiting truly is the hardest part of anything. The more i thought about it over the last week or so, it's a fucking killer. It'll drive people to drink, it'll drive people to cry, it'll drive a man fucking nuts. This occurs in many aspects of life. Filling out applications. The worse part isn't doing the application, or even getting rejected. ( Read more... )

I think this has happened before, at least the post seems familiar. You ever come across something that is a split moment and a fucking jaw dropping situation that will not only change your life, but also probably change a shit load of people's lives around you. This has happened to me. I won't go into detail on it. All i know is that there will be ( Read more... )

I will put that as the title because this fits me to a fucking T. I am in a mood to rant right now, not so much because i'm angry because i'm not. It's always sunny comes on in about 30 minutes, and anyone who has seen that show knows that you should not be angry going into watching it. It won't piss you off more, but the point is that the anger ( Read more... )

It has to be said. Congratulations to Jer. This mother fucker has battled through and has graduated from ball st. I'm very happy for that son of a bitch. Overall it was a pretty amazing weekend, with some great friends. I always come back a bit depressed not because i didn't have fun. Usually it's because my best friends live hours away, and when i ( Read more... )

I believe that after making a few posts recently i have figured out what i live for. I know that there are people out there who do it for love. There are those who do it for money. Hippies do it for weed. Nymphos do it for sex. I believe i found what gets me up day after day. Anger. Rage. Chaos. The more and more my life continues i seem to realize ( Read more... )

Ok, so the last journal had me blasting someone pretty good. I don't take back what i said, i stand by that completely. The thing that was overlooked by me in the paperwork of that post was that i mis-read some wording in the document. I said that if you and him "Get back together" then i would say fuck it and get the fuck out of dodge. Somehow i ( Read more... )

I gotta say that there are certain phrases that go down in history. I do believe that the end of this friendship will be remembered with that phrase. As you say, you can't get over "I've wasted 2 1/2 years" comment. Well i don't think i will ever forget the "Your friends think you're shit" comment. You know the worse part about it. They both are ( Read more... )

You know the whole AA thing i don't take seriously. However, if someone where to ask me at the end of the year's worth of AA's and alcohol classes if i learned anything, i can definitely say yes. I learned the serenity prayer which is a prayer anyone should be able to accept whether they're huge fans of god or not. I also learned that AA doesn't ( Read more... )