red fades before blue

[snjoa]

Every now and again, i'll get low. I will not resort to drugs, anymore; instead, I listen to Ani and play with my baby kitty of the same name. She's in my lap right now and i'm rejoicing as all the fleas are DYING from the flea collar I bought her today. Dana's out with her girl, + I'm happy for her; I'm happy she's happy

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[nvr_wana_lose_u]

im so sorry about not being able to call you.. my mom is a b word.. and im sick of her!!!well call me if u can 985-781-7158 i looooove and miiiiisss yooooou!!!

KATIE

hey blake

[deer_dance778]

Hey I just wanted to take a moment to apologize. I guess I was hurt. For some stupid reason, I say mean things to hurt others because I'm the one who hurts inside. I've changed a lot too, for the better. I'm glad to hear of your commitment. That's great. I'd be more than happy if you came to stya with us. I know Amy wouldn't be happy, but I gotta do what I think is right in my heart, not what others expect me to do. I've been really down lately because of my mom. She puts me on an emotional rollercoaster and its beating me down (my self-esteem. I called my sister tonite and talked it over with her and she knows what I'm talking about. I'm out of the psychologists office, I don't go anymmore. Shame to say no matter how much adhd and depression and anxiety he can cure, no one can help my self-esteem, not even me. I don't think anyone has any control over that. I just wish for once I had something to feel good about myself for (I'm not fishing for compliments, as I'm not that type of person)but I don't know that I do. Speaking of the

[snjoa]

Robyn, babe, I just had a chat over AIM with jazmin, a very.. (VERY) old friend... and it's like... everything (literally) is coming together for me. Now. You... hold on, let me express myself accurately (when it comes to what you just said: ...)

HELL YES! I fucking love that we've made up. YOU are awesome and ANYTHING negative I said about you was out of STUPID anger. YOU rock, even AMY rocks... and I mean that. (plus coy rocks, I always thought that) ... I cannot WAIT to see you and please, Robyn, PLEASE forgive me for my ignorance... my anger... and my stupidity, please. tell me you forgive me.

I can't wait to see you, babe. I have so much to tell you, so much to share.

I love... how we all change. It's my favorite thing about life.

NOT DONE!

[snjoa]

I just re-read what I wrote... and I'm not done talking to you "ROBONE" ...

Thank you. Thank you for being there. Thank you for letting me live with you. Thank you for listening. For understanding. For being honest.

I feel strange saying this.

... but...

I mean it.

I love you... (not like, 'lets have sex' love, but... 'thank you for being SUCH a good friend, love)

heh.

I miss... I miss your house. Fucking Picayune. Amy's 'spot.' CALEB. I miss caleb, lol... .. and I really, really miss Amy. Tell her i'm so, so sorry. please?

... I'll see you September 20th, babe.

Hell yeah.

Re: NOT DONE!

[deer_dance778]

Blake, you have the oddest combacks... not like smart ass comebacks, like reopening on stage comebacks. Kinda like when some bands walk out on stage and fireworks shoot off and the crowd is screaming and shit. BTW Coy got in a head on collision, I may have told you, with his friend Chris, not wearing seat belts, and coy's head hit the windshield. Either way, they walked out of the accident with just scratches and a sprained ankle. Here's the story, Chris was behind this one guy, and the guy comes up to the road he was suppose to turn on, and he just then threw on his blinkers and turned..that threw Chris off guard. Then when Chris got into another lane to avoid hitting THAT a guy, a big white truck comes outta nowhere, sped up and hit them. Coy said when he saw that white truck just feet away from then, he said time stopped, and he though "I'm dead, there's no way I'm gonna live" Then he heard a big crashing sound and his head went flying into the windshield. He said after it was over he felt on his head where he had hit, then looked

Coy

[deer_dance778]

The paramedics told coy he should have been dead or in a coma, because of the radius size of the windshield where his head hit.