Can I just say that I hate my family right now and that my dad makes me so angry. He's talking about not letting me go to Central. Which really pisses me off because Greensboro is NOT where I want to be at all. It NEVER has been. And I could be with all of the credits I deserve and took and happy in my place if my parents hadn't harassed me to ( Read more... )

Can You Feel It

I know why I'm mad... I'm mad at him for making me do it, because I had just like 10 minutes before had the conversation with him about how I didn't want to have sex with him and why that is. So yea, after having that conversation with him I am mad at him for that much. Also, as bad as this sounds and as much as I hate to ( Read more... )

You Were Just As Broken As Me

What is wrong with me that I manage to get myself into shitty situations??? It's gotta be me, cuz this is not the first time some bullshit like this has happened with me and sex and someone I don't want to do it with... I liked Dante until last night. Not liked a lot; but I liked him enough to want to get to know ( Read more... )

They open up your heads, they're fuckin with your mind

What can I say ( Read more... )

Rise the Wake and Carry Me with All of My Regrets

I don't see what the problem is... Why doesn't god just take me now and get it over with???? All my money is gone.... WHERE IT WENT is a Fucking MYSTER to me, but whatever its gone. And I'm supposed to go see Dima in DE tomorrow... How does one do that with no money??? Oh, I'm the fuckin' retard ( Read more... )

dont be ashamed

so for the fucking student academic services or whatever i had to write a fucking gay ass 5 pg reflection paper on civility... so i wrote a nice 5 pg paper on how i should have been treated civily on the night of nov2,2005 and how pretty much the whole school sucks, so everyone read my paper

Civility

Civility has a lot to ( Read more... )

When you come back we have to make new love

I hate to bad mouth my sisters, but one of them annoys THE HELL out of me when she drinks :-( I'm talkin' like I don't want to even speak to her anymore when she's drunk.

If my journal reflects my mood, how do I feel now?I need to get rid of my selfishness... It keeps me from growing as a person. yea... that and i don't want to like reggie, but i think i do a little or something and that bothers me. That I'm not in control of myself. I want control. I want control over myself and my life and my feelings and I don't ( Read more... )

This is not a small cut that scabs
and dries and flakes and heals...
Would you be my little cut...
Love is not like anything
especially a fucking knife...
I have the worst headache and I was wondering why and then I remembered it's cuz I cried earlier. Why did I cry earlier??? Because Dima's ring fell off my finger at Shelly's house and broke ( Read more... )

And When It's All Done

I wrote a song. I think about Dima way too much... Here's my song:Last Night I had a dream ( Read more... )