and when life turns to the toliet ( Read more... )

    It's been said before
that [maybe if & when]
I begin to calm down
and i no longer ACT
the WAY I DID WHEN I
WAS JUST A LITTLE GIRL!
Then CAMP will END
I WOULD be able to go home!
ONLY everything I DO
IS totally the WRONG THING!
they MEDICATE ME!
THEN i'm positivly for
things i know nothing of!
How does a DUMB blonde
DEAL WITH SUCH THINGS!?!
i'm not little, but ( Read more... )

SO EVERYTHING COULDNT BE BETTER... EVEN THOUGH IT ALWAYS COULD... DAVID IS ALIVE AND WELL... EVEN THOUGH HE IS EXTREMLEY SICK BUT JUST LIKE MY SISTER HE'LL GET THERE SLOWLY BUT SURELY... BIG BIKER MEN CRY ON MY SHOULDER AND I TELL THEM ITS OKAY AND WALK AWAY WITH TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY OWN FACE... I LOVE EVERYBODY! LIFE I GRAND AND THEY ALL KNOW ( Read more... )

sometimes in life things happen... and who really knows why... maybe they are suppose to, maybe its true when they say everything happens for a reason, i usually believe that thouroughly but its just hard sometimes. i just talked to my cuz julie and its been confirmed that my uncle will never wake up. even though he is opening his eyes and moving a ( Read more... )

so
where to start
the past few days have been crazy....
i found out yesterday
uncle dave...
got run down by a mac truck...
while stopped at a stop sign...
on his motocycle...
thrown 60ft...
unlce dave is my god father
hes the only real uncle i ever had...
i dont really even know the rest of them...
i have never experienced
the lost of a loved one...
in the ( Read more... )

She was sitting outside on the pourch swing, the look on her face was not an easy one to desipher. She looked almost calm, but as if she wanted to cry. Not that she was sad, just overwhelmed with thoughts, and yet the most relaxed she had been in just about 2 years, 8months, and 48 days ( Read more... )

forever love(digame)

on the ground
with the world
upside down
i got a vision of your face
and i must get me out
for so many memories we;ve yet to make
god don't send to me your angels

forever love
say you'll love
digame, digame
tell me so
i can hold you in my soul
if i go
ill know

when you smile
with those eyes
 its like
you place a finger on my heart
make me ( Read more... )

                        Sitting...
                    Looking....
             All new settings....
                Lights hang from the cieling...
          A black and white photo of an Italian woman...
             in a garden to my right....
                   I seem to have taken up reidencey here....
                ( Read more... )

you must love yourself...
before you can love another...
truer words have never been spoken
its truly impossible for you love someone,
when you have no love for yourself,
the word love is 4 letter word...
and should be sponken as such...
lightly...
althought this word is not used like most 4 letter words...
it has just as much,
if not the biggest,
impact out ( Read more... )

paths cross
minds intertwined
two souls
two days
once!
twice!
thirds times a charm!
fulfilled?
yes!
satisfied?
definietly!
scared?
entirely!
what of?
the end...
arriving at the very beginning..
sex as a motive...
never again to be seen...
fate?
or is it false reality?
how am i feeling?????
i want everyday...
to be the way the first day was...