these last couple of days
they've hurt me deep...
they have struck a painful chord in my heart

it feels almost as if the knife i use to cut myself
is too blunt to ease the pain

the blood trickling from my veins down the sink
is no longer the anguish flowing from my soul
but demons that will return to haunt me yet
and forever so

no one wants to interact with me
i feel like a doll that's been tossed aside --- flung away

hanging in the air for one dramatic moment

and falling down to a crumple of oblivion

my facebook friend tally
it's been hovering around 432-434 for weeks
no matter how many more "friends" i seem to "make"
there's always people unfriending me and keeping the equilibrium

but this morning, i got to 435
i was so happy...
i told myself
that spell is over
from now on, we start a happy streak
from here on to eternity
of friends and more friends
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recently...
i feel like i'm in a dead spot
i'm no longer getting any emails when i used to get 10-20 a day
no facebook notifications for days, when i used to get 15-30

they say that empty e-mails don't mean anything
but i feel like i've been cut out of something that i didn't realize i was in, for some reason that i don't understand...

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