Wow, talk about all of this journaling ( Read more... )

I find myself in an all too familiar place. I feel like I'm back in eigth and ninth grade. Everything irritates me, I close myself off from the world, I spend most of my time on the internet. I'm depressed again. I remember sitting in my room on the floor blasting my music and crying.

I've actually been searching for that cd that I played all the ( Read more... )

A long time ago two people stopped me from calling my father while drunk. I have never been grateful for it. I want to talk to him. See if he's still alive. See how he's doing. What's going on ( Read more... )

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Driving down the freeway today, I was on my way home in my Jeep. I was in a good mood, I didn't have class and got to go home early. But then, this giant-and I do mean GIANT- rock came flying from under a car in the lane next to me and smacked so hard into my windshield that it cracked. About 2 inches in diameter, it shattered and I practically ( Read more... )

I was tired. I still am. But of course, what am I doing? I got sucked into Fark. I'm Farking when I should be sleeping. I really am going to sleep now. Really. I swear.

This is all Daniel's fault.

And I almost put a slash before that last sentence...geez, lol. Now THAT'S bad. Evil, evil Fark! EvilER TotalFark!

A nice quiet morning. Ah...coffee, morning cigarette, music. Quiet. It's very nice. I did wake up slightly confused because I forgot Daniel was going to Julia's last night, hehe ( Read more... )

I'm getting sick. My head hurts, everything hurts. Ick. And just in time for the last 3 days of school and finals. Whee fun! I've spent all day in bed so far and feel a little better. I'm watching Thelma and Louise. I had my now-usual morning coffee. It always makes me feel better and helps me get moving in the morning. I've become addicted to ( Read more... )

So things are looking okay now. School is over next week, thank god. Once it's over, I'm sure I'll be feeling a lot less stressed and things will be even better. Daniel and I seem to be working things out and things are really good right now. I love him, I always have, and I always will. I know this. And he makes me so happy. He cares about me so ( Read more... )

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming?
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To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
And feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save youI'm upset. I'm angry. I don ( Read more... )