Just in case anyone unimportant still happens upon livejournal land once in a while. I'm making this post to tell you how I've been, how I've felt, what I've done, and where I want to be ( Read more... )

let's get shitty.

Serioiusly,

shitty.

I can't wait

to sleep late.

Oh, I get to see Arcade Fire
for my birthday. Who else? Yeah.

If art is an interpretation of life, then the pictures I take are my interpretation of my life ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I can't hangout with girls, because they make me feel like a girl. & I think not being a girl is how my relationship works out so well. You know how girls get crazy like being mad at their boyfriends for already being friends with other girls. Well, I don't do that. I might think about it every now & then, but I'm not going to say ( Read more... )

I get along really well with my mother
after I've had a few xanax
unfortunately I can't type
& I know it will all be over soon.
So, more drugs for me until the big bang.

I can't tell if the people I'm around are changing who I am or if they are making me. If I'm too old for this city. If I'm not suited for adulthood. Should I pick up more books. Or give up on school. Or friends? I'm going insane trying to figure out how to change myself. I don't know what to do for myself anymore. Or where to go. Or how I'm going ( Read more... )

I just had a huge arguement with my mom, I pushed her buttons to try and get something other than the word money to come out of her mouth. But money, that's all. I guess people get to old to change. I have no impact on anything she thinks. That makes me feel like a spawn, some little thing she created to do her deed and agree with her wants. That's ( Read more... )

Barred out, drunk and falling to the floor let me curl up by you. One of those 'you cry, I cry' nights, I guess. I guess I just want to hold you head and pet your hair. We share and switch those days where one of us won't remember how much you took care of the other. But since we switch, it's even then. It's even because I've seen you lay down a ( Read more... )

Don't be a sailor baby, being strong isn't for every body.
I can't do anything for you in Work City.
But you know I'd hop on a plane, fly to a city I don't know,
Get in a cab with a perfect stranger,
And meet you in a white room that smells like soap.
Just to help you breathe.
Just to hold your head.
Just so you don't ever sleep alone.

How ( Read more... )

i dont want to see what happes next.
you cant forgive what you cant forget.

miss you.
dont pray to god
but if i did...
i miss you.