just tell me everything's going to be okay.
I knwo I say it doesn't help.
.. but it does.
I'm sorrry.
I don't wanna be like this.
I wish Icould make it stop
Just tell me it's gonna be alright.

:'(.. I'm so upset right now. I was happy all day.. all weekend actually. It was such a nice change. I'm nto supposed to be happy though, I'm not allowed to be. No one will let me. *Stef I love you hang in there babe.. I knwo it sucks it always does..* this time it hit me liek a fucking brick wall, outta no where I just became sad and I wanted to ( Read more... )

Hmm well I've had some good days I guess.. Friday night I went to Kyle's house right after school.. we just hung around. Then we went to his hockey game, it was fun. He won! yay Kyle! lol.. Mmm this morning I was up at 8:| and then I had to go to the mall and I was back around 12 and my father beeped in on the telephone when I Was talking to kyle ( Read more... )

I got my job back at Home Hardware! Woo hooo!

People suck. I hate you. gah. I'm want to die.

:'(

This weekend was fun!
Friday I did a bunch of stuff
with Ashee!<3333 Brett n Kyle
I had so much fun, it was awesome!
Thanks guys!
Then yesterday me and kyle hung
out all day! I had lots of fun!
hmmm.. Today will definately suck.
Yesterday kinda sucked before I went out
I was really sad, I'll be sad again
*sigh* but what can you do.

today I Was happy for real! yay me!!.. cause of certain people though!.. hmm but yeah.. then I got sad.. as always.. and now I'm liek high on sedatives haahahaa I love meds.. and yeah.. for now htings are good. w'll see how they go.. I dont' wanna be sad again

I'm soo sad right now :'( !!! I Don't know why!!.. comments rude fucking peopole the things they fucking say just fucking everything I wanna die.. I WANNA CUT!!.. but I can't.. and that SUCKS!.. I wish Kyle was home:( Ican't take this !!! I need a way out:(:(:(:(:(

I'm sad!! :'( but what else is new. She's soo mean.. today sucked. for the most part, anyways. I wish I could do every sad day over ause I know everything thaty would be coming and I could change it and I coudlbe happy. So I would have to do the past year all over again.. hmph. I can't take much more over this. :(