I'm sad.. I wish Kyle didn't have football today. I wanna see him soo bad. I'm gonna see if he can come over tonight. I doubt it though, but its worth a shot. Hmph I hate this I'm never happy except when hes around. It's weird.. I will be miserable all day even if I am takling to him on msn but the second I see him or whenever he phones me.. I get ( Read more... )

I'm sorrry!

I didn't mean to hurt you.

( I'm not gonna be okay )

hmm I hate my life, I wanna die.. but Idon't think I could do it cause I'd feeel bad before I did it:S. Bleh.. I got Kyle to send mebck the email I sent him. I feel liek cutting too much so I haveto keep reading it.. so I can remind myslef of the things I promised him .. I don't wanna let him down again. He seems liek one of the only people I can ( Read more... )

Things are getting kinda scary, I'm addicted to cutting. I'm terrified. I try so hard to stop.. but its somethign that can't be done very easily. No one really understands and I HATE IT when people get mad at me or pity me. I also hate it when certain people offer advice cause its nothign that will help its nothing outta the ordinary its what I ( Read more... )

Nothing's changed, nothing is ever going to change. You're a liar. Thanks for the help, thanks for the talk.. The one I had to pretend happened. I wish I Was strong enough to do it.. I hate this, I just can't take it anymore. One day I'll be able to. hmph.. my life is going to be like this forever. Unless I chnage it and the easiest wayy to change ( Read more... )

I think I will kill myself tonight.

This entry is really long so I decided to make a cut so people don't get mad..

( Tell me baby, where did I go wrong )

8 FRIKKING MONTHS!! YAY!!
I'M SO HAPPY!!
:D:D

I LOVE YOU KYLE!

<3333

Hmm.. well it just keeps getting better ( Read more... )