i really hope i don't ever put myself in this position again. i hope i have learned from this experience. i hope i can love myself again and i hope all of those judgmental comments will leave my head at some point. i hope you will learn and grow and that your "love" will not feel this way for the next girl ( Read more... )

ahhhhhh i need an alone day today. i'm too mean to be with anyone. i might fucking bite off someones head.

it would be worth your while to give me some good to outweigh the bad... but that seems to be too difficult. even after 1 year. one day i'll thank you for the contrast you brought into my life and how i was able to learn so much from this.

if anyone wants to read a story i had to write for a creative writing workshop then read it. and please tell me what you think, be honest if it sucks.

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ahh. oh no. it just occurred to me that i may not have allowed myself to have as much fun as i could have... and i'm afraid that might have been a bad thing? i finally let go just recently.. i don't feel responsible for anyone but myself. it is wonderful.

why am i intimidating ( Read more... )

i feel like such a bitch. but i just can't do it anymore. i don't want to back down again either.

i miss my house. and my animals. and i miss parker. and my friends. and i miss my mom and dad. i miss real food. i miss good weed and getting drunk. i miss people being excited to see me. i miss being comfortable and everyone knowing me ( Read more... )

nevermind. its getting better... i just need to remember to eat so i don't have another emotional break down haha

i'm suffocating. i wish something besides time or drugs would take me away from this. it feels impossible.