today i am 18. "18 what?" you ask. 
years. 
i am 18 years old this day, 9-26 @10:26.

i do not feel any strnog sense of wisdom overflowing my brain. i am not any more mature than i was yesterday. (although, i was pretty mature already.)
i am not any taller, more grown-up looking, or adult-like in any way. 
i am still jessica. 
i am still that silly girl ( Read more... )

two people have approached me in the hallways of our school. "smile! look happy!" & "well you look really happy jess" i didn't know it was starting to show.
today in church. we discussed our identity. "you cannot identify yourself through the things you do." 
but, who am i?

somedays it feels like everything i do becomes a failure. i try to get good ( Read more... )

for the first time, i've found it difficult to write down certain emotions. (in here, at least. i can say write whatever i feel like saying writing in the privacy of my own journal.) i have to be politically correct in whatever i attempt to say write. (man, i'm really bad at that say vs. write thing.) 
i'm frusterated with a lot of things. i think ( Read more... )

there are some things that should last forever. moments like this should never fade, but they do. sometimes i just wish i cuold be stuck in time on days like these. there's no routine, i do what i love mostly, and i can be whoever i want to be and no one can judge me. i can laugh, i can cry, i can sing, i can dance, i can feel!!! but, i did learn ( Read more... )

   "don't wake me, i plan on sleeping in..." was the theme of this day. the postal service sure knows how to live life. 
    i slept for 12 hours straight. i got home around 9:30 and i told my mom about the retreat and various other things and then around 11 i went to sleep. i didn't wake until 11 AM this day. then, i decided to turn on my phone and ( Read more... )

          it's funny how customers will harass the employees who make their food.

it's sad how so much potential in another's eyes can be wiped away with simple hesitations.

i love it how people expect to get paid for the work they don't do.

i think it's scary how judgemental, yet sinful, the world can be.

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a few more minutes will pass and then it's over. summer life and mid-day caprice will no longer exist. you know what i'm talking about. the saga of school commences at day break and only the freshman will be jumping with joy. teachers will put on their poker faces, lockers will jam, pencils will break, sweat will drip, students will be on their ( Read more... )

my summer will officially come to an end 12 AM monday morning. for others, your summer will continue until the clock strikes 12 AM august 21. i have lost a week b/c of golf. while i'm stoked to once again be hitting the links for the last year, i am kinda tired of giving up my free time to the green grass and sand traps. don't get me wrong, i want ( Read more... )

it's funny how one can work so hard just to get second place....(ahem, third)

The heavy heart does yearn to speak ( Read more... )