Comments | so_carpediem: the baby blues...

so_carpediem

the baby blues...

May 17, 2007 22:21

I am fuh-reaking out. I was so anxious to go home. So happy and elated to give birth and then so overwhelmed. Since he came early, I was in a hurry to get home and get situated. And then I get this call from school about being kicked out of the Phlebotomy program that I need to take care of thats not even my fault! And so if its not fixed, its ( Read more... )

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yourgypsy May 18 2007, 19:04:51 UTC

I think it's completely normal to be terrified and to feel the way you do right now. I'd be more scared if I wasn't terrified, ya know? And post-partum depression is normal, too. (so long as you don't ask tom cruise heh)

But you know what? This is your little boy. And even though it's scary, you're going to do good. I know you. You just have to trust your heart, and go from there.

oh, and there are communities here on lj and message boards elsewhere for first-time moms. and i'm sure bonnie wouldn't mind talking to you either. :)

*hugs* it's going to be okay.

A P.S. to my long comment... heels_on May 19 2007, 04:02:13 UTC

And even though it's scary, you're going to do good. I know you.

And if Kris is willing to vouch for you, I KNOW you're going to do an awesome job. :-)

Okay, I'm done. Seriously sorry about the super long comment. <3

heels_on May 19 2007, 03:59:24 UTC

Just your random comment fairy, here again by way of yourgypsy.

First and foremost, congratulations on the birth of your son! I swear, there's nothing like becoming a parent--a mommy. It's so crazy. I know that when I was pregnant, I endlessly dreamed of the moment I'd hear his cry. I loved my pregnancy, to be sure, but I wanted my baby in my arms. And then it happened. And it was beautiful. And amazing ( ... )

yourgypsy May 19 2007, 05:07:49 UTC

you're not a "total stranger"... you're my pregnancy references! ;)

so_carpediem May 20 2007, 22:15:13 UTC

Thank you stonefoxmomma...for your comments, your advice, your support...everything. I do love my son. Alot. And I guess that's why I worry. I was a "structure" kinda person and still sorta am. I like routine, organization and all that so I know what comes next. But I knew that when Tristan was coming I wouldn't have that anymore which sorta bothered me but I knew would be worth it with some minor adjusting on my part. I expected to be happy and elated and just so content with everything which for the most part I am...but I didn't expect to feel this way. Yes, I know its totally normal to get the baby blues, but with someone so wanting a baby, someone so enthused as myself, I didn't think I'd quite be feeling like this or the whole "not liking the pregnancy feeling." Any expectations I've had came from me. I expect a lot from myself. As far as friends go...being a mommy made me realize and think about the people that I do need or want in my life and forget about those who I don't. I find that support from outsiders that have ( ... )