As this next month passes, I will become more and more homeless... again.  Awesome!

I just untagged myself out of 20+ pictures from a photo shoot last week.  I can't fucking stand looking at myself anymore...  I'm so tired looking and skinny, just sallow.  I can hardly look in a mirror anymore...  my loss of beauty is old news though.  I know people judge me more harshly now that I'm with someone and it does hurt.  "She's not ( Read more... )

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I am the most disrespected person on this Earth.   I have never ever felt this alone.

Rest in Peace pretty kitty.  I wish you a beautiful sleep, goodnight forever.

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He gave me a good night kiss to the Smashing Pumpkin's Tonight, Tonight playing in the background, it was so good my knees actually shook.

Friday, one o'clock in the morning; I grabbed a stop sign to know that it was really there. I could hear some girl laughing at my inebriated stumble somewhere in the distance, it was very funny and horrifying.  After finding my way back to the apartment, leaning on the brick wall and screaming Adam's name, there was a grand pile of vomit on the ( Read more... )

Now that it's June, we'll sleep out in the garden... NOT.  June the 1st means having to smoke on the street and run away from June bugs, fucking June bugs ( Read more... )

What is this?  Is this an update made by the Ellen Connaughton? ohhh. oohhhh... ohhh!  Yeah!  Read on ( Read more... )

In the past month I've morphed into a manically depressed, socially anxious, chain smoking-boy-magnet-model.  This is the most overwhelming my life has ever reached and it's an utter train wreck, but sort of hilarious to watch from the outside...
(They got to me, I'm now nothing, completely obsolete and emotionless).  It's alright though!  I get to ( Read more... )