i constantly wonder how my life looks in other peoples eyes. do they think i have it easy? do they think i have nothing going on for myself? or are they fascinated with who i am? the thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. no one will ever know the things i've had to overcome. not even my closest friends, not even my own family. the ( Read more... )

none of us thought it was gonna end this way ( Read more... )

i don't want to start thinking again. not like i have this last week. i can't think again. not ever again. i don't know if you've ever felt like that. that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist. or something like that. i think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like ( Read more... )

the spot where your hand rests ( Read more... )

i just realized that it's been two years since we broke up and i still miss him. the thing thats strange about it is, we only went out for 6 months. i told that to a friend of mine and he said that it seems to him that my sense of proportion was all screwed up. i don't agree. see, i've only been in love twice in my life. once, with the boy i'm with ( Read more... )

for a brief second i feel strong.
not strong enough to face myself,
but strong enough to keep going.

antiXwhat: and you know something you cant really love someone till youve been through the test of time
antiXwhat: i just think about this alot and its like people get in a relationship they kiss and say they love eachother
antiXwhat: thats not true thats bullshit you dont love that person
antiXwhat: you like them
antiXwhat: you can say you love ( Read more... )

we used to be in love ( Read more... )

i see you standing here ( Read more... )

believe me, it's how life got to be ( Read more... )