Today has been the worst day ever ( Read more... )

I love being a guy because well there are some things that come easier being a guy. No need for make up, plucking eyebrows, maintanence in general. Well except of course haircuts and facial-hair and other stuff but we have it better than the girls in the look department ( Read more... )

For this whole week I've been moping. My mom cried telling me how all she wants is for her children to be happy and healthy. I thought I had all that but I guess I don't. I am not happy, because I just realized all the mistakes that I've made. I guess a part of me knew I was fucked up I remember calling my cousin and basically telling him how I ( Read more... )

So today I had a talk with my mom. She said no matter what she is going to accept me for me. That was both nice and unhappy to hear ( Read more... )

I've been getting closer and closer to death ( Read more... )

I'm going to get kicked out of school soon again. I can't go to class I have no heart in it anymore. I'm just doomed for life. Why didn't I wake up when I was a child? Why have I been sleeping. I read this book recently, it's made me realize what I should have realize as a child. That I have the power to change anything, I could have prevented who ( Read more... )

I'm trying to be happy but it just doesn't work. I can't ever be happy with myself. I try but at the end I just can't be. I also understand people have it worst than me. I know. I can finally say I would accept being who I was if I had done differently. Meaning if I had ate healthy still had acne I would accept it. If I had slept early and did ( Read more... )

As the days go by everything just seems clearer and clearer. I just see more and more faults. I try and just stop thinking but I can't. The moment I see those people who are a part of my regret or see how others are doing so much better I'm just so down ( Read more... )

I always thought I was ugly. And to a degree I do fit that category. But to be honest I don't focus on my looks anymore. I used to be upset why I couldn't be more handsome and feel like why was I born. I realize that isn't that important to me. But what is, is the fact that I've been living my life full of mistakes and lies. From the beginning of ( Read more... )

I thought I was getting better but I'm not. I don't want to die. I value being alive and my life. That's why it seems weird for me and probably other people that I have suicidal thoughts or death thoughts in my head. I just have suicide thoughts or thoughts of myself dying. I probably think these things because I just want to end these constant ( Read more... )