Who knows why I'm actually posting in here again. Maybe it will be beneficial somehow. It's weird being a totally different person than the one who wrote all the entries before this. It's really refreshing though. I finally feel like I've grown up ( Read more... )

Oh vast flight of the midnight gale ( Read more... )

i need a vacation. i just dropped out of mcc today, that took a lot of unneeded stress off of my shoulders. i have opened up an internet shop selling customized t-shirts through a drop-shipping company in china. ha. its not successful, yet. im getting to be a 'verified seller' on ebay so that way i can advertise and sell through them. im also ( Read more... )

i can not wait to come home to florida i seereeihslee hate it here! im not coming back to boston next year, im gonna stay home in florida, get a band together, write songs EVERYday, and probably go to mcc in the mean time. the Boston Conservatory is just not for me ( Read more... )

how many people will read this but.. i look back on my journal entries from before i had the knowledge i have now and i wonder.. how many people will realize that no matter how much you try, you will never find the truth from people? there's isnt any way to think of something philosophically that no other person hasnt figured out in all the time ( Read more... )

Uh-! ... WAHH!!

i feel like there are two me's. one for you. and one for the rest of the world. the happy one is with you.

but i am here right now. im not with you..

im not me.

composing.. it seems like such a new concept to me, yet all of a sudden it seems to be so important in my life.. its really exhilarating..  but i wonder if i will ever run out of ideas? thats a interesting concept too, running out of ideas.. i wonder if there really is a limit? i mean new ideas come from discoveries, and there is not only so much ( Read more... )

i am getting sick of piano. my teacher said, "its like your only playing it because i asked you to, youre not playing beethoven, are you even into it at all?" 
"no." im not. not at all. i dont like it. only a little, but not enough to hear it more than once. if i dont like listening to people play it, how the hell am i gonna learn it, let alone feel ( Read more... )

ahhhh all i wanna do lately is compose compose compose!! but i dont have any time to do it! i wanna skip my math class everyday to go and compose more and then i wanna stay after school to compose even more!!! ahhhH ( Read more... )