I'm moving up in the world...sort of

I've got meself a blog not just a livejournal. If you want the site reply here and I'll post another with a link to the blog. I want to be sure friends get it not just random people.

So last post not so happy. This post not so happy either but better than last one ( Read more... )

I didn't know I could feel this way. I thought I was over this. I didn't know that seeing him with someone else having fun like that was going to send me over the edge. He's not mine. Why am I thinking that he is? Why am I so defensive? So possessive? So confused? What is happening to me ( Read more... )

So life is going albeit not as well as I would have hoped but a lot better than could be expected for me a year ago. So overall I'm happy but at the same time sad and lonely. I miss my friends. I have no one here. All I have is work. Very few people ever come to visit me and I can't make it down to MD to visit anyone due to the simple fact I ( Read more... )

So for those of you who read this, and I'm not sure many of you do. You know what I've been through and know that most of my posts are not happy ones. I am writing this to tell you that while it has been a long road and it will continue to be a long road I'm doing much better. I'm happier by myself and for myself than I have been in a long time ( Read more... )

I have decided to be the happiest I can be. No more fake stuff. I will love who I am and figure the rest out from there. I am going to really work on this over the summer. Hopefully with noticeable results to my friends and family (and mainly to me). I deserve to be happy, but no one can make me happy. I need to find happiness on my own. I ( Read more... )

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I'm ok now.

Good luck, safe journey and come home safe.

I'm a big girl now ( Read more... )

What a way to revive communications. "I'm shipping out for Afghanistan in two weeks for four months, my brother is having a good bye party it would be nice if you could be there." Don't tell me these things. I just got happy again. Damn it. I HATE WAR.