Wishing I didn't have to say goodbye to some people and wishing I could say goodbye to others. There seems to be no happy medium.

Thinking, it always gets me into trouble.

So staying up late watching TV is an interesting experience. Take this one commercial about male enhancement plays over and over again. ExtenZe, wow, and we wonder if there is any way we could ever mistake that for anything other than what it is. There are so many of these forms of commercials. I really don't care. If its not big enough, leave ( Read more... )

So with the help of certain people I'm slowly making the climb to sanity. Granted it is a very slow and tedious climb and I keep slipping but people have been great picking me up every time I have stumbled and giving me a leg up when I need to reach that next ledge. So thank you. Its hard to admit that you have a problem, and even harder to do ( Read more... )

I'm stuck being silent again. I don't want things to change, but they have to. So I'm stuck. Not speaking. Not saying what I want, because that isn't fair. I can't ask that. And I can't expect it. So I'm silent. And I think it is slowly killing me.

I just feel empty.
Loved
But empty.

My world is crashing down around me
I'm left picking up the broken pieces that keep falling apart in my hands.
I'm loosing sleep
I'm loosing my mind
I'm loosing my friends (what little I have)

Its just gone.

I'm losing my mind.
Nothing is the same
Thanks for being there
Even though its hard to watch me fall apart.

Horray for crazy dreams that only get your hopes up to have them dashed upon the rocks in the morning.

I need to get away from here.

Will people ever learn?

Will I ever learn?

Trying to figure things out but not making any forward progress.
I keep walking the same path over and over again.
Always going backwards, never forwards...

Waiting for something to happen
Just not sure what.