I was going to say why doesn’t anyone update their l.j. but then I noticed how often I do. Well this weekend turned out much better then expected. :) And now I just want to make it through the next month or so...alive. It could be a rough ride. F-ing college!

Do you know what I mean ( Read more... )

Soo, I want to die but this is besides the point. I don’t know what has happened to me. I didn’t grow up the last 4 years. I am old. Blah blah blah cynical Erica blah blah blah Erica is upset blah blah she is sad. What’s better no emotion at all and being sad, or being alive and being angry? I don’t know, life sucks get a helmet ( Read more... )

i could never express to you how frustrated and depressed i am with all this college crap. i should just give up on soccer it would make it that much easier. i hate this.

Ok so this is my fist small project idea for NHS. Find out how many teachers there are in Smithfield and then buy apples and make a card and such with pretty ribbon for all of them, Saying thank you. I think is would be festive and community-ish. And cheep, we have everyone give about 1 dollar. What do you think?

To high, too low,
Too blind to see the blow.
Can you catch me after I fall?
Who will catch me before the wall?
Too high, too low,
Please stop me before I let go.

-INNER RESTRAINT
-Ironic- F-R-I-E-N-D-S
-Try to be civil marlow
-Lunch line
-Bitch
-And he put the 43 into his mouth
- Self- restraint
- Angry on me
-Don’t worry
- Tempted
-Darkness
- It wasn’t intentional

"My fault, my failure, is not in the passions I have, but in my lack of control of them." -jack kerouac

"The sign of an intelligent people is their ability to control their emotions by the application of reason"

I don’t know how much more I can take. Who am I if I cant play soccer? I cant handle all this school stuff especially with soccer piled on. Fashion show what…or not? School, I have no homework one night then all of a sudden I have tons of papers and tests. Why does that always happen? I am very overwhelmed socially and mentally. I hate the word ( Read more... )

I don’t know how I feel anymore. Bittersweet chocolate comes to mind but I like bittersweet chocolate and I don’t taste the bitter.

ps. i hd alot more but i seem to have deleted it all.