i hate my life.... i just want to scream... why do i let people get to me?? when i took my hearing teat in jacksonville they lock you in a room and its sound proof and all you can hear is yourself breathing and ur heart pounding... omg i wanna be locked in there now just to scream and cry..... and cry and never stop crying... i wannna cry till i ( Read more... )

unhappiness does not arise from the way things are. but rather, from a difference in the way things are and the way we believe things should be. and comfort is an illusion. a false security bred from familiar things and fimiliar ways. it narrows the mind. weakens the body. and robs the soul of spirit and determination ( Read more... )

ok maybe im not going to bed or what ever my excuse was i think i want to write in here some more... i often find my self bull shitting how i feel not only on this journal but to myself... its like i try to tell myself i feel differently when i am unsure of how i really feel and i dont like it about me anymore... i feel so sure about this marines ( Read more... )

ok so im so friggen psyched! definatly i am joining the MARINES! ha the marines like omg i cant wait!! like i always have wanted to and thought about it and its always been in the back of my mind then this morning i wake up and like am on the phone with a recruiter and he wants me to go to the recruiting office at 4 to talk to him so i kinda am ify ( Read more... )

okay... last night... wiillld! woa, what a weird kinda happy.... so its monday and im on spring break for a week! woo hoo im going on a road trip with my bestfriend... i think were going to hit up daytona..... the beaches there rock i hear! ha ha just kidding... im not going anywhere for s/b just chillin in the daytona regions i like to call home ( Read more... )

tears are all the words that that your heart cant find the right way to say ( Read more... )

you know everything im afraid of ( Read more... )

i guess im finally learning that ( Read more... )

new years was fun... i kissed john at 12 ( Read more... )

i loved alot ( Read more... )