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sociopathetic

Tell Me All Your Thoughts On God...

Jan 10, 2007 00:09

My somewhat Step-Grandmother passed away last week and today I spent most of the day at a funeral which was much more formal than most of the funerals for my family have been. I think it's the irish family or whatever, it's about remembering the person. This seemed like they were just doing what was supposed to be done, like it was for looks more ( Read more... )

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sult January 10 2007, 07:18:17 UTC

therapy has helped me A LOT to come to grips with growing up a jehovah's witness, and even sticking with it a while into my 20's (pioneering, being an MS, etc.), and separating the religious dogma vs. spirituality ( ... )

sociopathetic January 10 2007, 17:34:18 UTC

You and I have something in common really. I was actually under a spotlight for fornication and get this... worshipping satan. Which like you I wish I was fornicating, for the same reason at least I would've had something to go along with all the scrutiny ( ... )

tourguidebarbi March 22 2007, 20:14:05 UTC

Your comment on God killing your friends who are good people... That is one of my biggest problems as well. I don't understand that at all.

bohemiantragedy January 11 2007, 01:14:56 UTC

Hey there, nice to see you post again. Sorry you're having a hard time though, I know it sucks dealing with all of it. Take care. :)

tourguidebarbi March 22 2007, 20:11:55 UTC

Wow. We are amazingly alike. I understand every word of this post.. it's as if I wrote it myself. I, too, never felt like I was a part of the organization or worthy of God's love or presence or whatever. And I have prayed - I mean prayed!! for my whole life and never felt like anyone was listening or even cared. I'm 31 and just recently got disfellowshipped and now trying to figure out where I want to go with my life. I friended you, I hope you don't mind! I'd love to talk to you more. :)

sociopathetic March 31 2007, 00:40:25 UTC

Thanks! Barbi is it? That's actually the reason I write alot of the stuff I do, as a witness this is just stuff you can't talk about, and I think it just needs to be said. There's alot of things that I think if addressed might actually help people stay in the orginization because they'd know how to handle these tough questions. But as usual it's everyone doing the ostrich head in the sand syndrome, if they don't acknowlege it, it doesn't exhist.

tourguidebarbi April 3 2007, 18:09:07 UTC

God.. you are so right. I have so many issues, but if you talk about it people freak out. If someone, anyone could have been there for me so long ago to listen and not be judgmental and help me figure out how to not blame god for all the bad things that happened to me I may be in a different place now. I grew up in a very abusive home and I prayed to god every night for some kind of help and things just kept getting worse. I even went to the elders and they were of no help at all.. and then I sinned, too, and it was all over at that point. And now people can't figure out why I don't want any part of it. I posted some of my other 'issues' on xjw.. you'll have to read it and feel free to share what you think. Thanks so much for replying!

tourguidebarbi April 3 2007, 18:18:29 UTC

Oh.. I do have another question for you..

Do you believe the doctrine the religion teaches? Do you believe in Armageddon? If so, how do you deal with that? Because at this point, even though I'm not sure if I want to even be a part of the religion, I still have that ingrained fear of dying. And I feel like life is going to be too short for me so I better enjoy it while I can.