I think that not seeing people other than my family all the time is kind of causing me to well in a way lose touch with reality. I Spend half the day in a kind of dazed day dream and then I realize that it's not real. It is really a weird feeling kind of living in your own world so much without talking to anyone and just like I guess in a way ( Read more... )

Well my first day of summer was boring but I guess it's still better than going to school. All I did today was take like a 3 hour nap, watch tv, add songs to my mp3 player and then fix it so I could add more. I'm afraid my summer is going to suck really bad cause I'll just sit at home the whole time and get sick of my family. One of my sisters is ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is the last day of school and I'm a tad excited but not too much. I'm supposed to wear a skirt tomorrow but I'm kind of scared to especially since it's supposed to rain. I'm going to look bad tomorrow but oh well it's just one day. Oh well. I'm not really looking forward to summer since I'll be really bored but I'm glad school will be over ( Read more... )

People are just so I don't know stupid and selfish and uncaring. I admit I'm like that too and I know it. I hate myself just as much if not more than I hate other people. People can just be so annoying and I don't know I guess I'm just tired of it. I'm tired of life and evrything in it. If only life could consist of just sleep I would be perfectly ( Read more... )

I'm really not impressed with people. There are some people who everybody seems to like or at least a lot of people. One person is Nick and I have to say I'm not impressed with him. I experienced him as a boyfriend and as a friend and neither experiences are that great. I believe he is best when you don't know him very well but well enough that he ( Read more... )

Well I have a boyfriend now. Well assuming you're Jodi reading this you might have guessed that it's Sean. That is if you didn't already know because like a ton of people found out and I'm kind of surprised people thought it that important. I didn't really think it was so big of a deal to other people. Oh well. I like him but like I don't know I'm ( Read more... )

Ok so yeah I just updated a little while ago but hey my mood has changed. First of all I would like to say I love Nick I mean I still meant what I said but I still think he's cool. Also I've gained more weight and I now weigh 120 pretty much well maybe more like 119 since my weight can up or down a pound a lot and I've haven't seen it over 120 ( Read more... )

I've always thought I was a loser but in the past couple weeks like its become even more obvious to me. I never hang out with people, I don't talk to many people outside of class, all I ever do with my time is watch television and well that's just pathetic. People act like they want to actually hang out with me but then they don't and it's kind of ( Read more... )

I say like a lot and I think it can make me sound really stupid sometimes but I can't help it. I don't say it on purpose it's just part of my thought process just like my um's, yeah's, I guess' and I don't know's. I haven't always talked like this I think it started around 7th or 8th grade when I started to become unsure of myself. In a way I add I ( Read more... )

I went on a fieldtrip to like a couple different beaches today and like trinidad and it was cool except at lunch Carly bought me food and I ate a lot and so after that when we had to walk a bunch I felt really sick. We had to walk like so much and it was sunny and hot. It was sort of fun but I did get a little sun burned. I managed to not get wet ( Read more... )