Guys suck I mean I love guys because they are fun and way less scary than girls but they suck because well they make me feel like crap. I sort of like this one guy but I have no chance and I just feel like I'm not good enough for him or anyone. I wish I was pretty ok no I don't I wish I was beautiful I mean if you're going to wish for something ( Read more... )

So yeah it's been a while huh? Not like anyone reads this so I don't know why I'm updating even now. I have so much crap in my life right now like before it was always just me being depressed but now it's like actual stuff for me to be depressed about. I realize now I can't trust any of my friends because that night all my friends betrayed me and ( Read more... )

I've lost weight and I think it's because I've been super stressed about life lately. So yeah if you care life totally sucks right now. I'm just hoping he'll call but he's already missed his I'll call you within the next two hours by like 3 hours so I'm thinking it's not going to happen. Don't blame him though.

I've spent the whole time since I get home hoping he'll call but he didn't. It was stupid of me to hope he would but oh well. I guess I'm just a loser who guys hate. Well ok maybe they don't hate me considering he called me yesterday and we talk for a long time. Isn't it a little much to expect him to call everyday? I'm just worried because a ( Read more... )

If someone were to ask me where I'm going in my life I wouldn't have an answer. A lot of kids have dreams of being famous or goals of having some job but I never have. If you were to ask me where I'll be in 5 years I couldn't answer that either. I have no idea and the reason for that is? I don't plan on being here. I don't have ideas for the future ( Read more... )

I really don't have anything to say. I wish I did because it would mean I had a life but I don't. Um so like yeah I'm bored. Really bored it's quite sad. I keep trying to think of something to say but I can't. I give up.

I've gained even more weight this summer and I hate it. Like at one point I weighed 130 and that may not seem like too much it's just I'm afraid I'm going to keep gaining weight. Plus it's like now I can tell because my pants are a whole lot tighter than they used to be. Some of my loose jeans are now my tighter ones and I'm afraid to try to wear ( Read more... )

When I walk or stand around too much without shoes on my feet start to hurt. It's sad really cause well I don't wear shoes in my house and I'm not going to start. It's also sad cause I notice it when I'm baking and I love to bake cause it makes me happy but that is the one bad part about it. If I'm making something that requires a lot of mixing and ( Read more... )

Well last week I got to hang out with people twice! Amazing huh? It was fun both times but friday was way better. Anyway I went to a baby shower over the weekend and I won one of the games! Yeah ok not so exciting but I have to say older people don't know the names of baby animals very well. We were given a list of animals and we had to come up ( Read more... )

Guess What? I found something that describes me perfectly! If you go http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/avoidant.html there you can read what it says. It is like exactly how I am though. Well anway I have had two people say they're going to hang out with me this week so ( Read more... )