It's thursday, on the eve of good friday.  Already the house is emptying, giving way to that curious feeling I find myself shrouded in when I am alone here.  It feels lethargic and hollow, like waking up in the early morning hours from a determined sleep.  Today has been a day of small victories and failures and I sit here, awaiting, as I often am ( Read more... )

Wow .  Drunk.  Christoph.  Mark.  Albion.

Must tour blackwood tomorrow, and call mama..... also DJ spooky lecture??  And the 5DFTH wrap-up at the bullring.... oh fuck.

EDIT: omfg how can I sleep with so much to do... oh dear dear dear.  Haiku biotch:

Pickles will save us. 
There is a tambourine here.
I should go to sleep.

Well skiing was grand, in Sunshine (Banff) and Lake Louise.  I am definately getting to like Ralph more... he can be a really nice and funny guy.  Anyways, the skiing was great... food was great, drinks were great... I actually enjoyed my mom's company, got a lot of sleep.  I've been having horrible headaches every day however... I think it may be ( Read more... )

I don't know what is going on, my head is pounding and I feel nauseous and cold.  I am drinking camomile tea and I used the magic bag on my neck for a while... my muscles in my back are so painful.... I was planning on drinking and enjoying myself tonight, but I don't know if that's a good idea.... I just broke down into tears and I am feeling all ( Read more... )

 Ohhh right so last night was a gong show... Kelly's birthday celebration at Route 50... well first drinking at Jaana's, then rounds for the girls at the bar.... then off to Eric's to smoke some bowls... I was totally spun, oh my gosh.  I got home at about 2:30 and haven't slept since then...  I laid in bed for a long time and started thinking ( Read more... )

 It isn't like I had imagined.  Or, it was, for about a day and a half.  Then the incessant plague descended upon me again, picked up and put on like an old worn housecoat, so familiar and so dank from lack of use.  It's overwhelming, suffocating, and I don't know if I can take it anymore.  I am feeling so frustrated and pressured and trapped.  I ( Read more... )

 The geog went okay... decently and not scarily as I had dreaded.  I spent yesterday afternoon all over town, tracking down some sparkling wine, glasses, and raspberries for drinks tonight.  When I got back Jocelyn, Manny, Matt, Owen Alisha and I went out for dinner at Lemongrass, a nice thai place... it was really lovely.  I ate much, it was nice ( Read more... )

 
I feel really strange and I can't explain it.  Today is definately one of those days where I write about the yolk and the whites and none of what is outside the shell.  I feel a thick dark murky soup inside of me and it's looming and darkening and largening.  My neck and shoulders are radiating with pain and it's worsening day by day.  I don't ( Read more... )