I don't know how I feel right now, other than depressed. I hooked up with a guy about a week ago, then again a couple nights ago. I work with him, and everytime I see him he has an attitude, I get all panicky and look like a total weirdo. He gives me this attitude usually when we work together, but then sometimes at work, and always outside of work ( Read more... )

i ate today. big time. I went to the cafeteria for breakfast, planning on only having some fruit. Well, "some fruit" turned into some sausage, part of a bagel, a bowl of frozen yogurt, a waffle, an omelet, and two bowls of cereal. Does ANYONE in this world eat like that??!! Then, I couldn't fucking purge because I was with my friend and he won't ( Read more... )

Work makes it impossible for me to be thin. i'm surronded by fried food and chocolate. today I could not stop eating, it was out of control. I purged once in the bathroom. I can't afford any more mistakes. I'm tired of being trapped in this body. There is a beautiful person hidden inside.

I did terrible eating yesterday, as usual. Today I already had enough. I had this little breakfast sandwich, then later I had a cappuchino smoothie, which was bad enough. I have gained quite a few punds already since I've been in school, and it's already visible. I always gain so much weight in my face. I make myself sick.

I am a fat ass ( Read more... )

Does anyone understand??
I hate when people tell me I'm not fat when I am.
I hate not being able to wear what i want.
I hate having a midriff that looks like a box.
I hate being enslaved.