And this is why I put my heart on hold. And this is why I have to do it again. 

I have put my heart on hold. I have to.

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I need to go out. Having no car hinders this. Walking back up my steep hill is a daunting prospect to tackle. And so, I find myself "trapped" at home ( Read more... )

"I haven't seen too many around lately. Things have been tough lately for dreamers. They say dreaming is dead, no one does it anymore. It's not dead it's just that it's been forgotten, removed from our language. Nobody teaches it so nobody knows it exists. The dreamer is banished to obscurity. Well, I'm trying to change all that, and I hope you are ( Read more... )

I am so bloody torn between New York and the Northwest. Both have pros and cons, and both have different opportunities. I was born and bred in New York, it's in my blood, but I grew emotionally and wizened in Oregon, discovered myself more or less, and that too is now in my blood. I need more time, but I don't think time will yield the answer I

I look up at the moon
and hope that maybe soon
we'll be together, I can tell
our romance will be like a spell
cast upon the town when we're around

my happiness goes hand in hand with misery.

Watching The Office, the episode when Steve Carell goes to New York. It's cold, and everyone's in coats, and it looks smelly and dirty and oh my god do I miss New York. Soon enough, soon enough.

This life was meant for heartbreak. I just can't get around it.

I'm still in a starry-eyed state, can't believe that he likes me back, yet so incredibly happy that he does. The clock ticks so slowly until Sunday, and it's painful to be away from him. I hurt and ache for him, yet think myself silly feeling so strongly after only a couple of weeks of being with him. My bed is lonely, and I miss him every minute. ( Read more... )