i went to the antm audition this past saturday and let me tell you it was quite an experience. there were over 1000 girls there. i wait for 6 hours, but it was cool because i made friends with 3 other girls and of course one of them happened to be a stoner. good times. they broke us off into groups of about 150 or so and then from there the ( Read more... )

i booked a job! not just a job, but a tv job! yay. i'm going to be on descontrol dancing in a bikini. :) ha

i'm not on academic probation! csun sent me a letter in the mail saying they made a mistake. i knew it didn't make sense and not just because i wanted it so. things are going fairly well. today's the big court date so i'm crossing my fingers for joe and the rest of my pac family. audition today and tomorrow. cool. ANTM this sat. so effing ( Read more... )

academic probation what? ya. great news to here right before spring break. what i'm wondering is where they are getting these grades from. my math class has 2 different professors now. we've taken one quiz. he never handed it back and we still have done anything for a grade. my soc 202 class consists of me getting to csun at 7:45 so i can ( Read more... )

This is insanity. I'm struggling with the information I see regarding Joey. Did he? If he did, is this the end? My home for 11 years. Is this it? Sometimes I wonder what it is that initially makes us come to a decision. Important ones I mean. Like forshadowing it or something. My mom said if we lived 100 years ago we'd probably be killed ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if someone's up there watching me going, "you're an idiot." whatever. i'll just assume there isn't and things will go along smoothly. didn't get the audition i went on monday. lame. whatev. if i got it i would be able to do top model. not that i'm doing top model but it's a possibility. the fashion show is fun, i just wish it ( Read more... )

so i was kinda sad right now when i went to alex's page and i was completely erased. pictures, mentions, status. although i did the same thing, i don't know, it kinda sucks to know he's moved on. not that myspace is the indicator of all things real.... far from it. i feel really conflicted still, but i'm staying strong by not flip-flopping on my ( Read more... )

This has probably been the worst birthday ever. I hate to sit here and complain, but it has been. Alex and I broke up, are on a break, whatever and I basically have been crying/over-analyzing and second-guessing myself ever since. How can something be so perfectly clear in your head, but when you put that into action everything seems completely ( Read more... )

it doesn't feel like my birthday.

however i do appreciate all the love :)

so kinda really nervous about tomorrow. class til 12 w/e and then i have a producer's callback for "miss hollywood desperado" at 1pm in beverly hills, then a music video audtion at 3:25 in la. (3:25, really?!? that's what he said on the message tho lol). and an audition for a fashion show in studio city at 5pm. i'm excited though, and i'm glad i ( Read more... )