Last night I had my first dream that had Leng in it since her death. I don't remember much but I remember her chubby self was talkin to me and it was like she never left. A few seconds later, Stupid scratched on the door cuz she wanted to get out of the room and it woke me up. Dumb cat ( Read more... )

I just finished writing a Eugoogly (a la zoolander) for Leng. I think I'm talking about myself a bit too much in it, but really this is just how I remember Leng. It's like she was a part of me. Any advice on changes would be helpful because I can proofread my stuff all I want and it will be very very very biased.

Leng was the girl that I grew up ( Read more... )

It just feels like a dream. Leng, I just fucking saw you like 6 days ago and now I know that I'll never see you again.. at least the way that I want to see you. What I don't get is how I'm going through this so clear minded. I SHOULD be in shock and denial and all that other bullshit that one that goes through this situation should be in, but I'm ( Read more... )

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THIS IS NOT HOW IT'S SUPPOSED TO END! YOU AND I ARE THE LEADERS! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT!?! WHY THE LIVING FUCK DID YOU DO THAT!?! I WAS HERE! YOU KNOW I'VE ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR EVERYONE WHEN THEY NEEDED ME!
Goodbye cuz, I love you. I miss you.

Fuck that. I'm not ready to say goodbye.

woulda liked to go :( stupid scalpers fucking up cool stuff!

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My uncle Nonie passed away a few days ago and I'm going back to Norcal for the funeral. From what I've put together he was sick, coughed up blood in his sleep, and choked on it. That's not a way for a man to go =\

Leaving Monday, returning Wednesday or Thursday.  

I don't know why, but driving in the rain at night makes me homesick. It reminds me of Norcal and makes me miss the feeling of being there. I miss the old days. Getting to Mercado and rushing through the rain to get into Sushi Lovers without getting my uniform too wet. Driving around Milpitas and running around the golf land parking lot in a storm ( Read more... )

( Racism? Maybe. )