it's been almost 4 weeks and by now journal you'd be getting the runthru of how i fell in love what happened, how it started, developed and of course - how it ended... this one is different

People don't always get what they want, somehow i did. I said i want Edward and i got one, a perfect gentalman who opens my car door and is careful when closing ( Read more... )

its been a year since i've left and it's been about  9 months since i've been home but i have yet to grieve ... i feel like because im a person with a good head on my shoulders and im the child thats going down the "right" path, im almost not allowed to breakdown. i thinks is harder being the sibling trying to outshine the others than to be the one ( Read more... )

and i have to say that if i wasn't id be a little scare.

Fine i admit it;
I think of you every second of every day. You're my favorite subject to talk about. When i hug you i wish i could never let you go. Most of all my dreams have you in them and i always get excited when i see you again.
  && im completely in love with you

I stil think that one ( Read more... )

It can’t be any harder than this... I mean, If I had known the last time I saw you would be the last time, I... I would have stopped to memorize your face, the way you move, everything about you. If I had known the last time I kissed you would have been the last time... I never would have stopped.

Tomorrow i start sending out my transcripts to ( Read more... )

i love when didi's in town !!

Everything is so much more fast paced its kind funny ... lot's of events, so many i deff won't go into detail but wed night we went to prive then i don't remember where - oh yea MANSION HAHAH. Then thursday lots n lots of turkeyyyy after a biiig hangover kicked in. Friday was fuuunnn we went shopping i bought a ( Read more... )

had a night so perfect that you woke up and thought it was a dream ? ... i have an now that im aware that i was awake and it was real and not a dream it seems to be as if it were a nightmare because it wasn't with you. We went to the grove to sandbar then to boardwalk, a balcony view of miami followed at pedros apt then we left and before i took ( Read more... )

that after everything that has happened i have finally been able to forgive you? is it not what i should do ? b/c i have ...

&& after everything that has happened i still believe that one day you will realize what we have - what we had - just as i have recently discovered. i know you need time and for some reason i am willing to give you that time ( Read more... )

could i tell you all of this ? or does he know !? i wish you could somewhat understand what i felt about you. i thinking about you, i dreamed about you and above all i cry about you. You are the only person that could ever understand the sadness under my happy smilies ( Read more... )

this isn't some fancy worded entry, this isn't a tactic to masking my feeling thru a song to make you understand what you've done or how you make me feel. this is me. this is real. you have hurt me much worse that i have ever hurt you, and you did it knowing what you were doing. i was always truthful with you, i told you how i felt i told you when ( Read more... )

         she's my best friend and the person i trust most with my emotions. She makes me happy when i need her to and she makes complete when i feel alone. Today like many other days in the past and no doubt days in the future a boy broke her heart. He had all of it in his hands and on his way home he decided to throw it out the window. This guy ( Read more... )