Me and Erinn Have been Broken up for close to ten months now. I had to stop talking to her, it was too hard. Don't get me wrong I love her to death, but she had too much power over me. She was able to make me do anything, and I don't think she knew that. Well it was a good thing for her, now that we have been apart she has cleaned up her life a ( Read more... )

Today while I was cleaning my room I found a chip clip, and I questioned my sanity and the meaning of my life. Am I here to help, protect those that need it, save those in a displaced disposition.... NHAAA, I'm here to fuck up as much as I can, lets burn some shit before-I burn. The Evils out, let this be a warning... the endless bottle has yet to ( Read more... )

There hasn't been much of a reason to write in LJ, since I starting writing in a real journal. Not much Has changed I have my Physical for the fire Department on the 6th Jury Duty on the 18th.

Well I'm regionally an EMT now, on the 7 of July I take National Registry, my final certification to riding the bus (Ambulance). I passed by the skin of my teeth, well I don't know the end score, because some of the questions will be thrown out, poorly written and such, so a few of those will raise my score, but when I saw the score I was around an ( Read more... )

Well it seems That class is going to go a bit longer than I had planned. Well that's ok, I can do without the extra money, I hope. It's been killing me at work, and I don't think that they like it. Me running in and out as I need, well I can't do anything about that. I have to find a new hobby, gardening is... ok, but I feel bad about not having ( Read more... )

I'm tired, I think that three funerals in three months is too much or is it the constant running back and forth from Oakhurst to Madera and then to the Doctors. I don't know, I have to read so I can't really sit down and figure this one out. everything is still fine here, just need to find time for some hefty sleep in-between work, reading, ( Read more... )

Well It's late and I've been busy, I don't have time to do a lot, but I finally have the days I want at work and a raise. I just had to quite to get them. So now I have weekends off. I find that I'm better off without any people interaction, that's why the day shift is so much better. I get to stay in the back and do prep all day. I think I'm going ( Read more... )

Thank You Mira, I'm trying to write more. I have to be short, well shorter then usual, Just got off of class. Class has been a life saver, it has given me something to look forward too, as well as some focus in my life. It's when I've been away from class, and deal with those jackass's at work that I get grumpy. I have sometime off school this ( Read more... )

Well I don't know what is wrong with me, I've been rather aggressive lately. I can't control my hate, I don't seem to like anything. One minute I'm fine laid back, the next I'm yelling doing inconsiderate things. I think I'm tired. Not just exhausted but tired of being walked on, tired of not being heard, tired of being considered last as well as ( Read more... )

Well here I am again. So I don't know how to say it, but I'm finally finding some structure in my life (lets see how long this lasts). I feel good, after all this time I think the prospect of getting out of a Certain Chain of pizza places, a factory for pizza you could say (now that was sly) has changed my outlook on life. Before I thought it was ( Read more... )