It isn't you, or me.

[sola]

The slow realization that nothing - no matter how warm and magical, no matter how crushing and awful, is ever, ever personal is strangely freeing. No situation requires anything other but a natural, logical and compassionate response.

No tragedy, no difficulty, no pile of work to be done. No flirtation (or lack of,) no judgment, no exclusion. No hug

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[namfle]

19? Good grief, that's a long time to bear that cross.

For what it's worth, I have nothing but sympathies; lord knows I've held a crush or three for more than a decade.

-elf-

[sola]

It was entirely incidental: it occurred to me only after this whole run of thought, and mostly functions as a good example of something that is an ultimate good, is positive, has directly to do with another person and your relationship with them, and yet everything about it: origin, reason, and outcome are utterly not personal and have nothing to do with who you are, what you have or haven't done, how worthy you are, or how deserving. And none of that applies to the other party, either. It is as it is, and seeing it as a whole makes it so much easier to accept and to decide on a response, instead of a reaction.

I haven't lived long enough to be finished with loving anyone that I started to love, heh. Time and distance have no relevance. Why do you think I've been so aghast about Astropuff? Heh. I know how long it'll be: captured like a moon.