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sola Nov 02, 2021 02:10

21 years old, wow. (I am still alive and checking this inbox.)

[dreams] there is no garden here

sola Sep 20, 2016 01:52

I am told to leave ( Read more... )

hiero, in your orbit go, song of come and gone, hierophant, a distant verdant shore., dreams

Sometimes it seems that my heart will never truly be calm and still until he rests his hand on my chest. He still smells of home to me. I still grow nervous listening to him speak, and at peace alone with his silence ( Read more... )

hierophant

[the absence] Send her on a journey.

sola Aug 19, 2015 15:15

Right now, my heart is out of my chest. It's laying on the desk of someone that i love: from there, it will go to someone that he trusts, and then hung from a tree, and in a few weeks, it goes to the fire.

I have no choice now but to trust the process, trust the line of love. It will go from here to there, touched by hands, but unopened, unknown.

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hierophant, the conduit

dream: what is its nature

sola Jul 21, 2015 06:54

I swam with the deer-god in His water-form, a sort of cervine selkie. Down, down, to the depths of the dark ocean. He loaned a mer-tail, that we might go the faster.

"What is your deepest desire for him? What is the true motivation?" He asked, as we skimmed over black stone. We had left fulfillments behind, near the surface: gone below the story ( Read more... )

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sola Jun 21, 2015 01:38

I've said it half a dozen ways, but here's the one thing I've learned from my unresolved, unrequited love:

Of all the people i have loved, which one of them has not sometimes needed that same devotion? Which one has not in all their need and beauty deserved the attention, the time, the considered gift? Which would not shine in that relentless ( Read more... )

the work of flight, hierophant, the conduit

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sola Apr 27, 2015 05:33

Mom isn't doing well (low appetite, confused, not attending PT this past weekend - we suspect abdominal fluid accumulation) and probably hasn't been well for the last two weeks, and I've likely had my head stuck in the sand about it. At least my brother has noticed, and in so doing lit a fire under me. Sigh. I'll call in a few hours and see what ( Read more... )

Kindness as a work. I want to be able to return to this thought more easily.

sola Mar 04, 2015 17:29

http://m.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/06/happily-ever-after/372573/

I've read this article before, but it's since occurred to me that all of its points relate to community cohesiveness and bonding, as well, not just single-partner ( Read more... )

the work of flight, hierophant, the conduit

[dream] the self-made men

sola Mar 02, 2015 23:28

Performers who had tremendously altered themselves: gigantic heads with single, enormous eyes or nostrils, supported by filigrees of brass. Round apertures like portals, set with swinging, spinning doors leading into the laryngeal space like bellows, or lenses of water-clear quartz protecting a fist-sized, carefully bioengineered eye. They prided ( Read more... )

dreams

It isn't you, or me.

sola Feb 08, 2015 01:59

The slow realization that nothing - no matter how warm and magical, no matter how crushing and awful, is ever, ever personal is strangely freeing. No situation requires anything other but a natural, logical and compassionate response.

No tragedy, no difficulty, no pile of work to be done. No flirtation (or lack of,) no judgment, no exclusion. No hug ( Read more... )

the work of flight