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feeling sad all of the sudden. I had a nice day yesterday so I don't really get why I am bummed out. Theresa was a little jerk all morning and I was so cross with her and I think I am feeling remorse. She may have been a jerk but I didn't have to get so upset with her. I hate it when I lose my temper ( Read more... ) -
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insisting on doing something together every day and then falling asleep at the same time as the baby. Kind of the antithesis of doing something together. And I don't think we should do something together every night. What is wrong with doing separate things and just enjoying each others company? Ah. Fuck it. -
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things are going better between us but I think that my heart is closed off. I want to be with Owen and I want it to work out but I just don't feel the way I used to feel when I am with him. I sometimes find myself having fun but the moments are few. I want our life together but I don't think he is the right person for me which makes me so sad but ( Read more... ) -
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I do not think I want to stay married to Owen. He just doesn't make me happy anymore. And I don't think I want to move to Florida. I miss the culture of New York. The lifestyle and all the different things to do and places to see
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My closest guy friend suggested today that maybe I should go stay with my mom for awhile and tell Owen that I'm not moving to Germany until he figures out how to be a grown up and budget and all that. I really am tempted to listen to him. I don't know if it would help though. We got paid only $500 today. After the past due bills we will have $100 ( Read more... ) -
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I am so stressed out I feel like I am going to be sick all the time and eating is becoming a problem. The things I should eat don't taste good right now and make me feel even more sick. What have I eaten today? like 8 oreos and two hot dogs. Healthy I know. And to top it all off I confronted Owen about his spending and all he said was sorry and ( Read more... ) -
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What do you do when you end up in this kind of situation? How much work can you actually do on a relationship when the feelings are fading. I did love him once but he isn't who he was and all those little things I listed add up to a lot. He makes tasteless jokes and comments to family friends and family members. But mainly he is just such a bitter ( Read more... ) -
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woke up really sad this morning. I slept terribly and now am not only sad but a little grouchy which I hate. I want to be happy and huggy and smiley when I am taking care of my baby girl. After she goes to bed is when I can have my emotions. -
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I realized I feel the need to hide my shopping habits from my husband. Not because I buy anything frivolous. Clothes are actually a necessity for me right now as I have so few since the post-baby body purge of 2011. As are clothes for our ever growing tiny tot. and the extremely long list of other random baby necessities like shoes and plastic cups ( Read more... ) -
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I was super honest with a friend of mine last night about the state of my marital affairs. It felt really good to get his opinion on things. I sometimes get the feeling that he cares for me more than he should. That I might care for him more than I should. *sigh* I just want someone who sees life in a similar way to me. He doesn't have to be ( Read more... )