They never tell you that your marriage can fall apart because of something that should have brought you closer together, or in my case, two somethings. My husband is in the Army and he deployed from June 2010 until May 2011. I found out I was pregnant in February 2010. We had been trying to get pregnant since September so it didn't come as a ( Read more... )

I hate being a woman when it is this time of the month. I have been annoyed all day and short with everyone and generally just feel angry at the world or alternately depressed and saddened by the state of the world. Why cannot hormones just be at one level all the time so I can feel sane and stable all the time...? Stupid Eve and that gosh darn ( Read more... )

feeling overwhelmed. Things are going well between me and Owen. We have talked about divorce and decided that we aren't quite ready to call it quits yet. It was a really pleasant discussion. He is getting out of the military so we will be moving back to the US within the next 6 months or so. I am stressed about it because I need to get myself into ( Read more... )

I took the love language test today as part of Owen's PTSD therapy. I realized something after I took the test. How I feel loved by Owen and how I want to feel loved are two entirely different things. I ended up taking the test twice. Once for Owen and once for every other relationship I have ever had. Two entirely different answers. It made me ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just feel empty inside. Going to the therapy group for Owen's PTSD program has made me realize that I might have quite a few problems that I have been burying or ignoring. Problems that are my own apart from any issues Owen may have or our marriage may have ( Read more... )

what is it that keeps friends from turning into lovers? why am i attracted to men who make no sense for me. i just want to cry all the time. i hate being depressed and i do not want to regret my life.

is it ever too late to undo a mistake ( Read more... )

I need to learn to be content in myself. I am not there and I realize that when I am alone. I don't think he is there either and we drag each other down.

somtimes I think that I am what is wrong with my relationship. He left for two months to get help with his issues and there is this ache in my heart. But I don't think it is for him but for the absence of companionship. What is a relationship if two people have nothing to share but each other? I can't talk to him about the things I read because he ( Read more... )

Things are going better between me and the husband. But I have remembered what I wanted in a relationship and I don't think I have it. When we were first together and married we had it. It was that hollowed out feeling when the other person wasn't around. The feeling like something was missing. The ache in my chest when he was gone. And I don't ( Read more... )