Sometimes you get in one of those moods, where you just take a peek at the past and it makes you feel like you have relived everything you went through all over again. You pitty yourself, you feel sad, vulnerable. Well, that was last night. I slept on everything I said, felt, and thought. Today I feel great. My judgement isn't cloudy because I am ( Read more... )

Screw names. I'm going to mention them all I want and if someone doesn't like it tough. They can be childish and be mad at me, I don't care at this point. So, I can't sleep. I'm always the last to know everything. And when I say evrything I literally mean it. Even the things I should know before anyone else, I know them last. This is an extremely ( Read more... )

So, I took Austin to the hospital today. Again. He has the aweful rash that appeared literally overnight. Covering his entire body. Naturally when I gave him a bath and noticed I completely freaked out, got him dressed and headed to the hospital, seeing as it's sunday and the doctors offfice is closed. Either way, I just don't trust the doctors ( Read more... )

So it's 11, not midnight for once! So Easter was good, Austin got a basket at home and one at gammy's. Of course he got into them and ate more candy then I would have liked him to, but thats how children opperate. Isaiah Jerrica and Eric went to my moms as well. The ham was amazing, and I don't even like ham. I ate more than I should have, but so ( Read more... )

So an old freind contacted me recently. We had only spent a few short weekends together, but corresponded for what seems like forever through e-mails and such. He had gotten a very serious girlfriend and was contemplating marriage. I was nothing but excited for him. He had been through alot, and happiness was more than what he deserved. Well ( Read more... )

Midnight. AGAIN. Why is it everytime I look at the damn clock, it's midnight? My days go by so quickly now. I just want to slow the hands of time and enjoy every moment of 1 single day ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here at my comp (obviously) just thinking. Thinking of all the things I want to do, and all the things I have done. I haven't come to any new conclusions to anything, nor do I really want to. I like to beileve that evryone has their purpose and that everything does happen for a reason. I thought about all the people in my life, and ( Read more... )

So it's about 1:00pm. I have been in this house alone now for about an hour.I hate it. Austin is at his granparents house. Where he has only been there once without me in the 9 months of his life.I often feel as though I need a break. Me time. I spend 24 hours a day 7 adays a week with my son, and love every second of it. However, I do get ( Read more... )

I hate to sleep. After about 25 minutes of climbing into my bed, and then adjusting myself, I can finally lay there and close my eyes. Only to discover that my blatter is going to explode, at which point I pratically sprain an ankle sprinting to the bathroom in pitch dark. Then the process of trying to sleep starts again. After the second try I can ( Read more... )

I was in the middle of writing a paper, and decided to hop online to take a break. Here I am though, writing. Not much of break, apparently. Class was fun tonight. More reading and writing, nothing extremely difficult, but somewhat challenging. Tomorrow I have work. 5:00am it is. Thank god I don't have class, I'm beat from work and school at the ( Read more... )