we thought we left possession behind ( Read more... )

we all have our hells
but the demons in mine
are practiced
plus they know me better
than you ever will
i've been learning my lesson
for years
you are the next teacher
you are the best liar
and i deserve an A+ this time

a lot of times the bad is just bad
and there's no good behind or in front of it
to soften the blow
its just another way of looking
we dress up and dress down
the same situations
the bad doesnt seem so bad
and there's good, if you look for it

...yeah i know that was stupid ( Read more... )

people are in control when they want to be ( Read more... )

father i've sinned over and over and over and over again
sorry my friends
i'm such a mess
i'm doing the best i can...

and mother i've tried over and over and over to open my eyes
look at my life tell me when did I die
cause I'm not alive
flip through the script and tell me what it says
skip through the story tell me how it ends

well i confess, i don't know what to make from all this mess
don't have much time for sympathy
but it never happened to me, you're feelin down now
i don't know where i'll be when you come around
and now it's time to make a choice
and all I wanna hear is your voice...

max is going to be here in about 30 minutes. im scared of this day. i ( Read more... )

i was sitting so quietly that day that i exhaled my soul without even realizing it and swear to you my heart just beats now out of habit.

everything seems harder this summer. everyone seems alone.
for once i actually want it to be over.

most of the time i end up wishing most of my life had been mostly different.

and i said i wouldnt do this. but i need someone to know. even if its not you, because i cant say anything to you anymore.

and then i hated to prove 'em all right
all those who said i'd run
but you can't will yourself happy