motherfucker. Here's the update. I hate the fact that I'm not the one, ever. Always second place. This is going to be almost 2 years of fucking emotions. This will also probably be my last entry in this. ever. Worse things have happened to better people, by far. I don't think that my "problems" are any worse than those of my friends. but this is me ( Read more... )

looks like there has been a Livejournal revival as of late, so I figured I'd join in. unfortunatley, this is all I have to say tonight. tomorrw there will be more about graduation and all that other shit.

Redemption
          Mourning
                    Life’s riddle to solve
Exhaustion
          Excitement
                    Light at the end of the hall
Question
          Introverted
                   All these reasons have to die
Understanding
          Unknowing
                   No words to ask why
Intention
          Quiet ( Read more... )

is it sad to anyone else that I only post in this thing when life has really got me down, or when I have something really bothering me? I think this live journal portrays me as a very unhappy person, which is totally not the case. I'm a very happy person, I think. it's not often that I get to just think about things, people, feelings. I think ( Read more... )

what the hell am I getting myself into?

I have a feeling that all of this is going to backfire

when it does, what am I going to do?

( Dirty Road )

the worst part of hope is the eventual letdown.
the worst part of love is the hurt
the worst part of finding is losing
the worst part of me is me.

I'm so bummed.

I shouldn't hold my breath for these things anymore.

Suck it up Bobby.

Being alive is looking pretty good again.

I feel better about being me.

bonus.

Happy birthday to me. Today is my 19th birthday.

I feel so old.

Everyday it becomes more evident to me that I need to do whatever it takes to get the fuck out of Golden as soon as possible. This town is a fucking black hole. If I don't get out now, I may never.